This is my Path. (Sequel to Wait What)

Chapter 9

It started getting dark, we've been on the couch for what seemed hours.
Jared has been rubbing my back and playing with me hair every time I got tense when I started to think about it. I finally sit up and stare at him for a moment. He turns his head to face me. "Thank you." I sniffle.
"Anytime." He kisses me cheek. We pause for a moment. His face close to mine. There was tension, heat... A spark. I'm not sure if I was thinking correctly. I mean it's Jared, and I might be thinking un-rationally. But I had to act fast, I can ether turn my head or wait. I didn't move, my body wouldn't let me turn away. I couldn't figure out why. I didn't have time to because it wasn't long until our lips connected. I could've stopped it. But I didn't... Javier didn't even cross my mind while this was happening. Javier who?
The kiss escalated fast. Soon enough I'm beneath him, as he hovers over me on the couch, as I run my fingers through his hair, tugging a little. He carries me to his room, as he gently lays me in the bed without breaking the kiss. Jared slowly kisses down my neck, nibbling a bit, making me tense but relaxed at the same time. He runs his hands everywhere, exploring my body. I flip us over making me the one that's in control. As we kiss and our tongues fight for dominance, my hands run up and down his chest. The part of my brain screamed out it was wrong. But a part of me screamed this was right, it felt right. I wanted this, I didn't know why. But I didn't see it as revenge, it was more passion like I was doing this out of reflex or something... But I really wasn't thinking of the reasons why, I was to busy oops. Sorry not sorry I guess.

**morning after**

My brain was a little fuzzy. I was covered in sheets, which were quite warm since I was cold- and naked? The warmth was coming from behind me, as soon enough two arms wrapped around me and pulled me closer to the warmth. I felt a body- a naked body. At first, I thought it was Javier and I was disgusted by myself but I look around the room and realize I'm not in my room. Matter of fact I don't even remember going home. I turn around to check who it is. I spot Jared. I gasp, but I cover my mouth so I don't wake him up. At first I'm kind of relived. He's not a player or a fuck boy or some sleeze who wanted to get in my pants. He's one of my best friend I made in college. At first I'm just sorta observing his features. The way his mouth is slightly open, or how peaceful he looks. At first I'm wondering how this happened. Or why I even let it happen. Something about the moment made me want to kiss him. I was wrapped in his arms, engulfed in his warmth as his chest moves slowly up and down. I slowly lean in and kiss him. He starts to fluster as I immediately close my eyes to pretend I'm sleeping. As I peak a little bit through my eyelashes at first he's just staring at me. Not in a weird way but gentle and soft. He pulls me a little closer and plays with my hair. A tiny smile starts to pull at him at the corner of his mouth. He kisses my shoulder which leads to my neck, to my cheek, to my lips. He tugs on them delicately with his teeth, I pretend to wake up at that moment, making my eyes flutter open, only to land on his bright brown eyes. He kisses my forehead to my nose, to my lips where I gladly kiss back, tugging a little. A fully formed smile lands on his face. "Morning gorgeous." Jared yawns.
"Good morning, although I probably look like a mess." I giggle.
"Nah." He pauses,"I see you didn't sneak out or leave me like I was a one night stand."
"Oh yeah cause it was to late, you already woke up." We chuckle.
"What even was last night." He asked.
I paused for a second,"I don't know. I just knew I wouldn't let myself stop. I just kept going cause a part of me wanted it. A part of me felt as if it was right." I realize what I said,"oh shit I probably sound stupid, I mean we're both having problems with our relationship or ex-relationships like-"
He cuts me off,"Daniella... What if I told you I felt the same."
I freeze,"what."
"You heard me." Jared sighs,"we'll figure it out don't worry okay." Soon enough we were just laying there, as I rest my head on his chest I hear his heartbeat. Soon enough I jolt up.
"What's wrong?" He asked concerned.
"Jared where's the condom." I put on his shirt.
"It should be around here somewhere." He gets up putting his boxers on searching around the room. As the time grew, we became more frantic about finding it. We search around the room hopefully finding a used condom laying around. "Jared where is it?" I start to panic, he hears it in my voice. Jared hates seeing me like this, so he searches through the garbage in the bathroom.
"Shit, I don't know Daniella." He runs his hands through his hair.
"There has to be at least a wrapper." I go through every room and through everything. There's nothing to be found.
"Daniella calm down." Jared holds me tight as I start to tear,"we'll find it."
"Jared we didn't use a condom, what if... What if..." I couldn't even bring myself to say it.
"I'll go buy some food and pregnancy tests. You stay right here okay." He kisses my head slipping on clothing, grabbing his keys and leaves.
I sit in the center of the bed. Maybe I'm not pregnant, maybe I'll be one of those girls who can get pregnant or I'll just end up being lucky and not be pregnant. I can't have a child right now. I have to finish college. And there's so much stress and drama I can't even handle. And with a child...

What did we do...

A/N
Hey boos, ooo what the hell just happened?! Sorry guys school has been blah and just, a lot is going on so please don't hate me!!!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! Vote, comment, and follow! Love you boos I'll try to update again soon! (I'm sick)