This is my Path. (Sequel to Wait What)

Chapter 7

I miss him... More than ever, he hasn't left my mind. But I guess we're over?.. I don't see a point on being with someone who can forget about you. I don't understand, I dedicated my life to you, you took up my whole heart- you promised me forever. Obviously forever was cut off soon. I need more cloths now that I think of it... I guess I have to go back to the house.
"Bye Eric!" I close the door walking towards the house. As I reach it I saw a car driving off in the distance. I enter the house to see it partially empty. There was a note, well letter.

I tried Daniella. I couldn't do it anymore, I'm done you're ruining my life and Cassie and everyone else makes it better, I can't take it anymore. I already picked up my stuff and left, you can get the house I've already found a place to stay... I'm sorry it had to be this way, I don't need you anymore, we just weren't meant to be. I need to experiment I need to figure out what I want or if I still love you. You get the house, I understand if you hate me. But we're over. Final.
~ Javier

By the end of this letter I was sobbing. How can he just end it like that. I thought I was the love of his life, we had it all planned out. Why, why is this happening. I need him. I love him. I'm in love with him. And he's doing this with a fucking NOTE. No way is it gonna stick with this. How would I find him or something... They're still rebuilding the college so we still won't have classes for a while... Maybe James knows something. I grab the note, crumbling it up, racing over to the car. I zoom over to James house. I knock on the door rapidly, ringing the doorbell once or twice.

As he opens the door he yells,"Guys keep it down get a room-" although he freezes once he realizes it's me.
"Hey." I say, the voices stop giggling and shouting. It's dead silent. "What's going on..." I try to go in but James give me pleading eyes, shaking his head. "James come on." I pry though the door. And I understand what he meant. There in his living room on the love seat was Javier and Cassie.

"What the hell is going on!" I shout.
"Daniella calm down." Javier immediately gets up.
"So you break up a relationship that lasted more than a year for a whore you didn't know for over a couple of months! OVER A FUCKING NOTE!" I exclaim, breaking into tears.
"If you listen-"
"No fuck you! I see how much I really meant to you!" I start to walk out, as Cassie and James just watch.
"You know what, fuck you too bitch! I don't know how I dealt with you- you were such a pain in the ass I'm so relieved you're out of my life!" He shouts back.
I slap him. Cassie gasped, James had wide eyes, Javier holding his cheek, me firmly standing my ground although I was shocked at my choice of the reaction.
"You'll regret this. Once you realize what you've lost you'll regret. And you can hate me. But you know what... I hope you end up happy with this slut." I glare at her, she looked quite frightened. I smirked at that... As I start walking to the door I turn to James,"I trusted you... I guess I was wrong." I slam the door turning on the car driving back to my empty house.

I slump in the couch and cry... How could he. I thought he loved me. I can't believe he just threw it away. I went towards the kitchen searching through everything. I find bottles of beer, and a bunch of other types of alcohol. I stopped my drinking habit that I grew over the years but I need it more than ever now. I grab a beer opening the bottle, gulping down every drop, at every 2 minutes that passed crying. Why doesn't he love me...

Javier's pov

I was at my friends house, of course I didn't find a place to stay. I just couldn't face her. How could I say that to her? Telling her she ruined my life? That wasn't true... She's the best thing that ever happened to me. At least she was... I'm so stupid. She probably hates me now. But she can't see me in tears... No she won't.
"Aye, yo Jeremy!" I shout across the hall.
"Yeah!" He shouts back.
"Do you have a drink or something?!" I yell, I could use something to get my mind off her.
"Actually," he walks over," I have a drink and something to smoke, sound good?"
"Mmm I don't know man.." I shrug.
"It'll get your mind of things." Jeremy offers once more...
"Ight." I grasp it, opening the beer and taking a smoke. As I begun to lose myself I think, Fuck... I thought we loved each other. What the fuck happened... Just as weeks pass, it had become an addiction. It saved me.

1 month later

I spot them together again. I've tried to move on but he's become worse and his friends and his little girlfriends have been coming after me, I don't even understand why. Every time I try to move on Javier just pops up in my life some where- some how. I'm tired of it. I find something good and there's always something there that makes me not able to reach it and boom he's back on my path just ahead of me. Life or God is playing a game and I can not take it anymore. They rebuilt the college. So sometimes I catch him taking a glance or watching me straight up.. But sometimes from an angle I see him... Sad. Why don't you say something... If not... Then I will.

Today is Friday, and I go up to him, at least I try. But I turn an angle to avoid him. Fucking hell. I'll just send him a text later. Plus there were people around I don't need more attention. Plus I think him and Cassie are something. She's such a fucking whore! Ugh! James and I- actually everyone I used to talk to I've lost all contact with. Pretty much. Except a couple of people.
"Dani!" Speaking of one there is Jared the one guy I have so much in common with and confide in.
"Jared!" I turn smiling. We catch someone's eye if you know who.
We have a regular conversation and he talks about coming over soon and all to help me in Italian since he's doing well. And no he has a girlfriend, but I wouldn't mind having him as an option but I'm not Cassie so. After a while we finish talking and I finish the few classes I have. Before I know it I'm back in bed with a beer at 5:06.
I guess I better text him.

Me: Javier we need to talk~Delivered
10 min later**
Me: Can you fucking answer I know you got this~Delivered
7 min later*
Me: Don't make me call you...~Delivered
15 min later*

He's such an ass I guess I have to call...
Ringing... Ringing.... Ringing.... Voicemail. Ugh.

Him: What do you want Daniella.
Me: I know you're not doing shit so meet me at the park... Our old spot. In 20 min.
6 min later*
Me: I'll be there. If you're not there I understand to leave you alone forever. Never text never talk.. Nothing. If you show... That's a different story. I'll wait at least 15-20 min after, that's all the time after until I leave. Bye.

I drink at least 2 beers more before I go. I get out of bed and into actual cloths heading to the park at our old spot. So many memories, it hurts. He wasn't there when I arrived so I waited as long as I could. I finally give up after 30 minutes. As I turn around to head over to my car a harsh raspy voice quietly calls out to me...
"Daniella..."
I turn around, he looked tired, red eyes, his tan skin dry and pale, hair short- different. A slight smile pulls at my lips as tears start to fill my eyes... I sigh,"Javier..."

That's when things started getting serious.