Lost (Sequel to New Girl) {Discontinued}

Chapter 8 the Result and Together Again part 2

A/N: Hope you enjoy! And see you at the end of the chapter!

Jace's POV

I watched her look down at the test then look back at me again, she sighed shakily and shook her head,

"Negative." She mumbled, before she decided to sit down. I sat next to her and wrapped my arm around her shoulder, she leaned her head on my shoulder and I rubbed her back,

"Its okay Clary," I whispered, "maybe now wasn't the right time anyway." I whispered, she looked up at me,

"Yeah I guess, I guess I just got my hopes up, we're too young anyway, aren't we?" she asked, I nodded,

"I promise its for the best, just for now, yeah?" I asked, she nodded, and I kissed her forehead, she placed a hand on my cheek and whispered,

"I love you, I love you so, so much, and it sometimes hurt."

"Shh, shh I know baby, I know just relax." I mumbled against her forehead, she leaned up and kissed me, the kiss was slow and intense but it got more deep and passionate as I lay her down on the couch slowly. She pulled away slowly,

"We have to be careful this time." She said, looking into my eyes, I smiled,

"I know, we will." I whispered and kissed her passionately.

About an hour later Clary was asleep in my arms, and we had a blanket wrapped around us, she seemed so peaceful when she slept and I kissed her hair, so beautiful I thought to myself, how the hell did I get so lucky to have her? I asked myself.

I sighed and watched her sleep for a little bit before I turned to look at my wrist, seeing faded red marks on my wrist. They were cuts. I cut myself a few weeks ago; I know what you're probably thinking after what Clary's been through if she finds out about this she'll be broken, but the thing with her and Jordan broke me, and I felt worthless and depressed but at the same time guilty because of what I did to her, so to relieve my pain just for a second I used a blade and cut myself. After everything Clary had been through I decided to do this because I felt jealous and broken because I thought she didn't love me anymore, but she did.

I heard her start to stir and when she woke up she saw me looking at my wrist.

Shit I thought. She frowned and went to look at my wrist, when I leaned away from her she took my wrist into her hand and saw the marks on my wrist she gasped.

"Oh Jace," she mumbled and kissed it, I looked at her,

"I'm so sorry Clary," I whispered, "this wasn't because of you, I felt guilty for doing what I did to you..." I trailed off she knew that was only part of the truth and she stroked it, she sighed,

"You did this when I was with him, didn't you?" she asked, I nodded, "you felt worthless didn't you?" I nodded again. She sighed,

"I should've listened to Izzy..." she trailed off, I looked at her,

"This is not your fault!" I said,

"Yes it is Jace, I shouldn't have done that to you, I know how it feels to be depressed and worthless I should have never done that to you or Jordan, I broke your heart Jace. I'm so sorry." She whispered, I hugged her,

"If I wasn't so jealous none of this would have happened." I mumbled, "I'm sorry Clary, and I shouldn't have made you go to Jordan because of what I did." I whispered, she shook her head,

"I wish I never broke up with you." She mumbled,

"Let's just forget about it, okay? We're back together now." I kissed her head, I took my hand in hers and stroked the back of it, turned it over slightly and saw red marks,

"Babe?" I asked, she looked up at me.

"Yeah?" she asked, I looked down at her wrists where the marks were and asked,

"You didn't did you?" I asked, she looked away and it felt like my heart broke into pieces, "when?"

"Kaelie." Was all she said. I kissed her wrist,

"Oh Clare." I said, hugging her tightly, "I'm so sorry," I whispered, she shook her head,

"It's fine," she mumbled,

"Baby it's not fine, I did this to you." I whispered, she looked up at me,

"I just did it to..." she trailed off because I knew how it was going to end, to relieve the pain.

"I know baby, we can get through this together I promise, I will never make you feel worthless again, I promise. Does Seb know?" I asked, she sighed and nodded,

"He realised when I was wearing long sleeves around the house." She said,

"He's going to love me isn't he?" I asked sarcastically, she sighed,

"We'll try to explain to him as much as we can, if he still hates you, which I doubt because he's your best friend-"

"But I hurt you Clary." I said, she shook her head,

"He knows how much you mean to me, he might be pissed off for a bit, but he knows that I love you and how broken you were when you saw me and Jordan together, trust me Jace, he'll be okay." She said, before she leaned up and kissed me passionately, and mumbled,

"Love you," I smiled,

"Love you too," I whispered against her lips and after a couple of minutes of kissing we fell asleep in each other's arms sleeping peacefully.

A/N: hope you enjoyed, probably like my other one I'm going to do a Sizzy and Malec chapter and it'll be the next chapters since this will only have ten chapters and I might do one with Clace as well as a special chapter like an epilogue.