✕ Yvonnie ✕
Friday
3 a.m.
I was on the verge of bursting out in tears. I couldn't sleep for more than two hours without Kennedy crying. I was exhausted, stressed out, and my patience was running very low.
"Ok, ok, shhh..." I hushed her as if she was a real baby. I swayed her side to side while feeding her.
I sat on the bed, looking down at her. I wanted a baby when I was older but now that I know how stressful it is...I'm good.
After 3 minutes, Kennedy stopped crying. I didn't want her to sleep with me so I just put her in her mini carseat. I dragged myself to my bed and fell face flat on it. It didn't even take me 5 minutes to go to sleep.
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5 a.m.
Kennedy woke me up out of my sleep once again. I was ready to throw her ass out the window. I picked her up out her car seat and laid her out on the floor to change her diaper. I unbuttoned her onesies and took it off. I unstrapped both of the tabs of the diaper, taking it off of her and putting a fresh clean one on. After that I put her onesie back on and placed her in her carseat.
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7 a.m.
This time, Kennedy didn't wake me up. It was my alarm, telling me I had to get up and go to school. I couldn't function properly and I was cranky, due to lack of sleep. I couldn't wait till this project is over. I'll be able to sleep again.
I got dressed and changed Kennedy. Once she was dressed and all good, I grabbed her carseat and went downstairs. I went in the kitchen and I thought about brewing some coffee to help me stay awake but I hate coffee with a passion and I refuse to drink it. I just ate a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios and left with Kennedy.
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I pulled into school and found a student parking spot. Thank god I managed to get to school without crashing or going off the road. I got out my car and went to the back seat to get Kennedy. I grabbed the handle of her carseat and took her out. I closed my back door and locked the car.
I walked inside the school and seen a few people with their baby, arguing with their partner. I'm telling you, this project is making everyone lose their minds. I went to my locker and put in the combination to open it. Once that opened, I grabbed my books. As soon as I closed my locker, Kennedy started fussing and crying.
I slid down the locker on my back and started to cry. This shit is too much to handle. After a little while, I realized Kennedy wasn't crying anymore. I looked up and it was GiGi feeding her.
I got up and hugged her tightly. "Thank you GiGi." I mumbled and sniffled.
She nodded and smiled. When Kennedy was finished, she gently placed her back in her carseat. She turned to me and wiped my tears with her thumbs.
"Don't cry Vonnie, it's okay."
I shook my head repeatedly. "No it's not Giana. I didn't even get enough sleep last night! While Odell was sleeping like a fucking baby, I was up feeding and changing Kennedy! I'm stressed out! I don't have any patience left in me! I just wanna sleep!" I screamed out of frustration. There goes the cranky in me.
