Lost

There Was Never "Us"

The next morning, I felt totally normal until I came to the realization that Ethan had kissed me. Then told me it was a mistake. I still don't know how it was a mistake when he was the one who kissed me! I didn't want to face him. I didn't even want to get out of bed. So I just lied there, thinking.
"Claire!" Yelled a familiar voice. That's right. The king is here, aka my dad. So much has happened in such a short period of time.
"I'll be there soon!" I yelled back.
I slowly got out of bed. I had no energy what's so ever but I still tried. Everything was in pain. I was sitting at the edge of my bed for a second, and decided to stand up. As soon I stood up, the rug under me slipped, and I knew I was doomed. I closed my eyes and awaited my impact when I feel arms around me. A loud thud echoed through the house. Me and the person who caught me were on the floor. I was scared to open my eyes. I didn't want to see the face of Ethan.
"Are you ok?" Questioned Nathan.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw Nathan holding on to me. I was on top of him, jus staring at him. Soon reality hit me. I was on top of Nathan.
"Oh. I. Um. I'm so sorry. Are you ok? Are you hurt? Did you hit your head on the floor?" I questioned quickly. A sudden smile emerged on Nathan's face.
"I'm fine. You blabber so much." Said Nathan still holding me on the floor.
I tried to get up hesitantly. His smile was so friendly. I awkwardly got up and held my arm out, offering to help him. We both got up and started laughing about the whole situation.
"Your face when you were falling was priceless!" Laughed Nathan
"Whatever" I replied giving him a smerk.
"What's this?" Said Ethan who was standing outside the room door.
"Oh. Claire was just falling and I kind of helped her. We're both fine now though." Answered Nathan.
Ethan's glanced over to me after Nathan's response. My eyes could go nowhere besides to the floor.
"Let's go downstairs to eat." Said Ethan while walking away.
Nathan and I walked downstairs to get some food. The king was sitting at the table as well. We all ate in silence. The clitter clatter of the plates where the only sounds made.
"Claire, could I talk to you. In private please." Asked the king
I nodded my head. We both had gotten up from the table and walked outside. We walked around the pond.
"Look. I know I have not been here, ever. But I want to be here now." Said the king
"Where's the queen?" I asked
"She had died years ago while trying to enter this world. Some say she's still alive, but I had buried her body myself. It's only me and you now." Said the king.
I couldn't believe mother queen was dead. I never even met her. The thought took me a while to sink in, and when it did, it hurt. We ended up walking around the park, surrounded by silence once again. After a while we headed back to the house.
"Alright. It's training time." Said Ethan as we entered the door.
I wasn't mentally ready for this. We went to out regular training room and started p, well, training. I was obviously off today. None of my spelled where working the way I wanted them to.
"Why are you so off today. Come on." Said Ethan I'm a strict manner.
"I have a question. Just one." I said, knowing this wasn't going to end well. "Why was kissing me a mistake if you were the one who did it?"
He stood there steadily. "Because I got caught up in the moment. It was my mistake and I apoligize." Said Ethan
"No. Getting caught up in the moment was not the reason. There's something else, and I will figure it out. If you don't tell me, I will find out one day." I said trying rebuttal him.
"I have feelings for you ok!" He screamed. He held on to my shoulders tightly and moved me back and forth, "I fucking love you and it hurts me so much."
I didn't know what to say. I felt the same way.
"I don't know what to say." I said while Ethan let go of my shoulders. He was waking away when I said, "My heart drops every time you smile. I smile when I see you mess up. I cry whenever you leave my sight. I yearn for you, every second of everyday, and I don't know why."
He had turned around and said, "Then stop. Because I might love you, but I will never be with you." He looked straight into my eyes. His stone cold eyes pieced through me. He had walked away...from us.
It felt as if I was being shot in the heart several times. I could feel each shot burn though my skin, but I wouldn't die. I just lay there, paralyzed in my own blood. I was broken.