Temporary fix|JaiBrooks

Chapter Twenty four

My heart begins to pound, my pulse radiates through me and blocks out all sound within my reach. I start clutching my head when the voices come back.

Did you really think you would get out of here.

Silly bitch.

You will never leave as long as I'm here.

'AHHHHHHH' I start screaming and crying. The doctor shoots up and presses the button for help. I run out the door and slam my body into Harry.

'Harry please help they won't let me go. I CANT STAY HERE PLEASE. HARRY I CANT DO THIS HELP.'

'Char calm down please Char'

'Nobody loves me' I sob and cry as he clutches my face. I don't even care that everyone in the visiting area can see me.

'I love you please calm down'

But as soon as I start to calm down I am pulled from Harry by two male nurses. 'NO STOP PLEASE NO HELP HARRY HELP' I scream out to him but he is being held back by the guard.

'CHARLOTTE JUST BREATH ITS OKAY I LOVE YOU STOP IT' he screams tears running down his beautiful soft face.

I stare at him and slow down my breathing. I know he only means it as friends so it's okay. He knows I love Jai.

Once the nurses realised I have calmed down they slowly release their grip. They still remain by my side just incase though. Harry runs over and hugs me tight.

'Charlotte I promise I will visit and I promise you that everything will be okay. It's only three weeks until Jai and the boys come back and you will have us all to help keep you on track. I don't know what I would do if I let you down.' He says, his voice cracking at the end.

'It's fine I'll stay with her you can leave now' he slightly snaps at the nurses.

'Excuse me Mr styles but you can't just tell us when to go'

'Charlotte how do you feel' the dickhead nurse asks.

'Fine just had a freak out'

He gives me some meds and waits till I've swallowed then leaves. Harry takes my hand and pulls me towards the table in the corner by the table I see all the other boys there too and they all get up to hug me. They must have heard my little fit. Brilliant.

'You okay now Char?....'

'Yeah sorry just got some bad news that's all' I smile.

I look around the room and see a boy around my age by the desk with bright red hair and an ATL tank on with black skinny jeans. He was staring at me but quickly stopped when I glared at him. He can't judge me for what just happened if he's checking in here. He keeps his head down whilst that same narcissistic cunt tells him what ward he's on. I hear the warden tell him he's on the same ward as me.

Newbie.

'So Michael you will be sharing a room with Charlotte who is lovely has a lot of fits though so if you aren't comfortable we can move you' oh brilliant this is my roommate I hope he actually talks to me.
'Hey I'm gonna go to my room I will see you guys tomorrow' I say getting up. They all hug me goodbye and I start to head back to my room, or I guess our room now.
As I walk in I see the boy from earlier putting his stuff away and sticking up some posters of Nirvana and good charlotte. I see some photos of him with 3 other boys and one photo of him with an older looking woman kissing his cheek and him laughing. It must be his mum I wish I had that.

'Your side is pretty bare don't you think?' He suddenly says. I jump a little before looking back at my side to see it completely bare apart from two photos - one in a frame of me and Jai, him kissing my cheek and me laughing. That was taken when we had a water fight and Beau took a photo of us laughing. The other one is of all the boys, me, Lu and Chels. Jai is picking me up and we're both laughing and Daniel is kissing Lucy, beau and chelsey are laughing and Luke and James are pulling funny faces. These were my favourite photos so I decided to take them. They are the only things I really have for memories.

'Do you not like your parents or something why have you not got them in a frame or anything.' He says questioningly.

'More like they don't like me.' I say awkwardly smiling.

'Oh sorry, anyway I'm Michael I am a total loser who over dyes his hair and listens to great music and is in a band with 3 other dickheads.' He says. I scrunch up my eyebrows in confusion. He seems too happy to be here what could he possibly be in here for?

'I'm Charlotte but call me Char' I say suddenly realising that I have no interesting facts about myself.

'No hobbies?' He asks

'No' I say sadly.

'What brings you in here then? We may as well get to know each other' he says.

'Drug and alcohol problem, eating disorder and I tried to kill myself just the usual' I say casually with a slight hint of humour.

'I tried to kill myself and I've been self harming and doing drugs so we're on the same boat' he chuckles nudging me.

I look at him and smile. 'How long have you got in here then Char?'

'I have Two weeks left and I've been in here One month two weeks and one day'

'Oh I have a month just so they can keep an eye on me' he says as if I actually asked him.

'Hey I have a phone I snuck in do you want to use it?' He says excitedly. I know I shouldn't because I know seeing all the hate won't be good but one look won't hurt.....

Will it?