Temporary fix|JaiBrooks

Chapter twenty

'Hey guys there's a party on tonight you all wanna go?' Beau asks.

Everyone agrees and I can't help but feel nervous. The type of parties we go to are full of drugs and shit. It has been weeks since I got high or drunk. I'm scared to go back to that place. I was off the rails.

'C'mon Lu, let's get ready' I say pulling her upstairs. I open my wardrobe trying to find something to wear. No one makes a huge effort like we don't act as if it's a red carpet event. I pick out a black shirt dress some tights and my heeled boots. Lucy picks out some jeans and a bralet with Black open toe heels. She always looks so gorgeous I wish I had her figure. I get to work on my face and do a dark smokey eye and curl my brown hair.

'Are You nervous to drink again?' Lu asks glancing over to me. 'A little but I think I need it.' I say. I am nervous, but im also a little excited. I need to get fucked after so long. We walk down to see everyone waiting and we see Kiana and she's wearing a body suit with black heels. (AN-In case you are wondering a body suit looks a bit like a swimming costume)

'You know our parties are more casual then going half naked right?' Lucy says. Me Skip and Jai all laugh because Lucy has never said anything like that to her before. 'Better than looking like a tramp' she says laughing. No one laughs.

'Oh really, is that why our boyfriends actually like us and don't give other girls more attention? Because honey you might want to reconsider how wonderful this pathetic excuse of a relationship is.' I say to her. 'I suggest you don't call me and my friends tramps because it will just come back to bite you In the ass' Lucy says. Everyone begins to laugh after struggling to hold it in. 'C'mon guys lets just go' Beau says laughing.

***

We have been here for about an hour and Beau is with this girl he has been seeing Chelsey. She is lovely, Luke is with Kiana, Lucy and Skip are together and I don't know where Jai is. I am with James at the moment and we are downing cheap beer. I go off to look for Jai and find him sitting with his mate troy. I sit next to him and because im so intoxicated I sit on his lap and attach my lips to his. I begin to straddle him 'Char lets go upstairs' he says and I lead him up to a room. As soon as I close the door he slams me into the wall and begins to unbutton my shirt dress leaving kisses down my body. He pulls his shirt over his head and picks me up throwing me onto the bed. He hovers above me and leans down trailing his lips down to my stomach until he reaches my underwear. He pulls them off and begins to leave kisses making me feel amazing. He Comes back up to my face attaching our lips, he stands up and pulls of his trousers and boxers. I love him, I really do. He makes me feel whole.

***

I pull my dress back on and grab his hand and take him downstairs. Along the way we bump into a mate of mine John. 'heyyy, up for a good time?' he asks us both holding up a needle and splifs. I look towards and Jai and smirk. 'Yeah sure, let's get fucked' we follow John into the shed.

And this is where my night begins.

**

I am in the garden spinning around and laughing. Jai comes up to me and places a splif in my mouth. I giggle and spin around and kiss him. 'I love you' I say.

'I love you too' he says

I frown. Why does he have to lie? I know he doesn't, how can someone love me? I am repulsive. 'Charlotte what's wrong?' he asks.

'They tell us to see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. But the problem is the evil lies within us. I tried so hard, and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even mater' I say beginning to laugh manically. I jump on him attacking him with rough kisses. He pushes me off. 'What, what is it'

'Enough with the dark shit Char what is wrong'

'Me'

He walks off leaving me. I smile for no reason.

Jai's POV

I walk of and sit on the curb outside who-ever house this is. I sense someone come and sit next to me. I look to see Dakota. 'Why does everything have to be so fucked up' I say.

She smiles and for some reason knows who I am talking about. 'She doesn't mean to Jai'

'So what do you do when you can't tell anyone shit because it might really fuck things up. And you know what to do or what's happening.'

'You learn to deal with it, Because she has.'

'Me and Char make good friends because she's mental and im useless.' She says calmly laughing a bit.

I just look at her and shake my head lighting up a fag. 'If the person loves you, shouldn't that make a difference though?' I say

'Not all the time. Charlotte has a lot of love in her heart. She is just too scared to show it.'

She stands up taking cigarette out of my hand and taking a few drags before walking off.

I shouldn't have let her do those drugs. Because now its back to square one.

And that is not good.