"Stephanie you need to talk to Demi" I instantly rolled my eyes getting up on my feet.
"That's what this is about!? Nah Dinah I'm good" Dinah then stood up and walked over to me.
"Stephanie sit the fuck down" she ordered but I wasn't scared of her.
"Dinah I'm not having this conversation" I clearly wasn't having it.
"Would you just let me fucking explain!" Dinah yelled frustrated.
"Explain what Dinah! HOW SHE FUCKING PLAYED ME AGAIN!" I yelled feeling tears form in my eyes.
"No! Would you just listen for one second!" She yelled back standing face to face with me.
"NO WHY SHOULD I!" I yelled getting angry.
"BECAUSE HE TRIED TO FUCKING RAPE HER YOU FUCKING IDIOT!" She yelled. The tears I tried to hold back where now slipping down my face. It can't be true.
"What do you mean" I cried out.
"Stephanie, that night, day. Whatever. It wasn't what you think it was. Demi wasn't kissing him, Demi was pushing him back. She was fighting for her life. He came on to her"
"I don't. I can't believe it"
"Of course not. Your too much of a stubborn ass too. Can't you see Demi is madly in love with you and probably always will be. Yeah she fucked up but hey everyone does. And we all know you love her as well Stephanie don't even try to deny it either."
"I'm sorry Dinah, but I just can't right now"
"Okay maybe you can't and I'm not saying right now but you need to understand your in love with her, you can cover it up and much as you want but in the end your only lying to yourself" I didn't speak. I only listened, I looked at Dinah who tried to figure me out but I knew she couldn't.
"I talked to her Stephanie. About two weeks ago and she's in pain, she's hurting. It's not all about you, other stuff that I can't tell you about but your a big part of it. She's convinced your the only one for her, your the only in she loves, she only sees you Steph. Seriously the girl has it really really and I mean really bad. It's crazy how she that into you, I don't even think your fans are that into you but hey! I could be wrong I mean look at our fans..." I giggled.
"What I'm trying to say is, please just talk to her" I sighed.
"I'll try dmac" Dinah finally smiled then pulled me into a hug.
"Good but you better or else I'll give you a poly beat down" we both laughed and made our way upstairs, I could see everyone having a good time and that only made me smile. "Hey want to dance with the girls?" Dinah asked behind me. Lauren, Ally, Camila were dancing together while Ashlyn and Normani were straight out grinding on each other, I mean Ashlyn was a dancer after all.
"No thank you, later." Dinah looked concerned but hid it with a nod.
I honestly just needed some space after this whole Demi thing so I made my way to the only place I knew I could be alone and have a good view to look at. My tree. I noticed a few people were now around, pulling out my phone it read 11:11. "Make it wish Steph" I told myself as tears form in my eyes again. I don't believe in wishes but in this moment I really needed one. So I climbed up the tree first looking out into the mountain view, I made my wish finally letting out my tears.
I come to realize I don't know what to do anymore. Dinah's right, as much as I hide it a little part of me will as well love Demi/ and I hate saying it but I do. Then again I know she hurt me. When I was going to give her that stupid promise ring look at what happened. In treatment, but if what Dinah said is right then that's my fault. I never let her explain but then again how could I if the first time wasn't a game, it was real. I haven't talked to her because honesty, I don't know what to say anymore. There's nothing left to say. The worst feeling is not knowing if I should wait or just give up and never look back...
Chapter 15
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