Victoria's Rants

english class

okay so I've already talked about on my message but idgaf because I need to let this out even more and plus this will be in more detail

I think this happened on wednesday (or thursday I can't remember) and it was in english class. we had to work in a group of four to do this task where we glue stuff onto a piece of paper that's either a secondary source or a primary source and wHAT DO YOU KNOW MY CRUSH IS PUT IN MY GROUP

BONUS MY FRIEND WHO KNOWS I LIKE HIM IS ALSO IN THE GROUP SO YAYY SO MUCH FUN FOR ME (nOT)

EXTRA BONUS ROUND!! MY HAIR WAS A FUCKING MESS THAT DAY SO EVERYONE TAKE A BOW TO FAILURE VICTORIA

anyways so we decide to work a table and when my crush sits down I try to sit on the left seat so I won't have to sit across from him and guess what??? my """friend""" steals the seat from me so now I'm forced to sit across from him and I'm just thinking you motherfucker wYD

taking a seat while my heart is like about to explode to where it fucking comes out of my chest and it lands on the tiled floor still beating & shit I reach over to pick up a piece of paper from a stack of the papers we had to glue stuff on. keep in mind that I legit lose every single control and I lose all ability to think when I see him so grabbing the paper happened before I could even think about it first.

I already had the paper with some things glued on beforehand that we did in class so my english teacher saw me take the extra piece of paper sO SHE LITERALLY RUNS OVER LIKE THIS IS A FUCKING MARATHON AND SHE RIPS THE PAPER FROM MY HAND AND LOOKS AT ME LIKE I JUST COMMITTED A CRIME IN HER CLASSROOM

SHE STARTS FUCKING THE TABLE UP AND OUR WORK IS EVERYWHERE AND GLUE STICKS ARE FLYING AND MY CRUSH IS JUST SITTING THERE WATCHING ME AS SHE SAYS, "WHY DO YOU HAVE ANOTHER PIECE OF PAPER? HUH? WERE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO WHAT I WAS SAYING?"

AND BECAUSE MY CRUSH IS RIGHT THERE I TRY TO THINK OF A WAY TO THINK OF A LAID-BACK RESPONSE OR JUST SOMETHING THAT WONT ME MAKE SOUND LIKE AN IDIOT BUT NOTHING COMES TO MIND BECAUSE AGAIN I CANT PROCESS ANYTHING WHEN I SEE MY CRUSH SO I JUST SAY WITH BLINKING EYES QUIETLY, "I, UH, UMMM, DONT KNOW . . . "

AND THIS BITCH BEGINS TO ASK MY FRIEND WHAT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO DO SINCE MY TEACHER COULDNT SINCE SHE ENJOYS RUINING MY LIFE AND WHILE THIS ALL HAPPENS MY FRIEND'S LAUGHING HER ASS OFF AT MY HUMILIATION IN FRONT IN MY CRUSH

AND WHEN SHE LEAVES I JUST SIT THERE ALMOST THIS CLOSE TO JUST CRYING BECAUSE HELLO ENGLISH TEACHER YOU JUST BASICALLY RUINED MY CHANCES WITH MY CRUSH NOT THAT I HAD ANY BEFORE BUT YOU MADE IT WORSE

I DONT SAY ANYTHING FOR THE REST OF ACTIVITY AND I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK TO SCHOOL AGAIN BECAUSE THIS WAS THE MOST EMBARRASSING THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME AND IVE HAD A LOT SO