Twisted

Chapter 3

Flashback

It hurts. Everything hurts, not just physically but mentally as well. I lay on my bed, cutting, not realizing what I'm doing because my wrists had went numb after a few cuts. I didn't realize how much blood I had gotten on my bed. My parents will ask me what happened, but hey won't care, they're to busy getting drunk. I wish they would stop, I wish they would go back to the parents I had when I was younger. I looked over seeing a bottle of pain pills. Tears were running down my cheeks but I show no emotion. "I'm such a baby." I whispered to myself grabbing the bottle of pain pills next to my bed. I lied them all out, counted them. One, two, three... fifteen of them. They can't ask me what happened if I'm not here in this world, correct? I grabbed a bottle of water as well and stared at the pills for what seemed forever. I felt like a little girl, a little baby girl. I felt weak. I put five pills in my hand, I would take five pills three times adding up to fifteen. I know I should write something or call someone about this, but I can't or else I'll back out of it. I put all five pills in my mouth until someone walked into my room. No... it was Adam. "Derrick!?" Adam yelled bloody murder and ran to my side pushing my head down to spit out all five pills I had taken inside my mouth. I was shaking terribly. "Derrick, what are thinking!? Have you gone mad!?" He yelled in my face, it seems like he's almost about to cry. "What have to done to yourself!? Where are your parents!? Where's your sister!?" he grabbed my wrists and stared at them, he seemed so worried, but I don't understand why. His life would have been the same without me, I don't need to be here and he doesn't really need me. "Where do you think my parents are?" I asked him with attitude. It finally clicked to him that they were out drinking again and I told him my sister was at her friend's house. I had to reach my breaking point sometime.

End of Flashback

He told me I needed help and he forced me to see a doctor, he payed for it and kept it from my parents. I'm so thankful I went, I got better, and I'm so glad to have a best friend like him. Except my anger never changed. It was a part of me that would never go away but if it weren't for him I'd probably be dead by now. "Alright boys, get on the field now and sprint! Hustle hustle hustle!" He yells at all of us, I was distracted the entire time. "You alright man?" Adam asked as we jogged to the field. "Yeah, just thinking a little to deep." I revealed, I hate talking like this because my soft and sensitive side comes out. He knew I didn't wanna talk about it. "Is your girlfriend here?" he smirked at me while we sprinted and I gave him a death glare. We both laughed, "she's not my girlfriend and she's with my sister on the bleachers." I was going to be teased about this for a while now. It was about 7:00 p.m. now and our game starts at 7:30 p.m. so we have half an hour to do whatever, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I left the field and went to where Renae and Natalia were in the stands. "Boo!" I scared them both out of their skins and laughed. They were both finding something to talk about though I couldn't figure it out because I wasn't part of the conversation. "You're a terrible person!" my sister yelled at me punching my arm, I laughed and told her I was guilty, obviously just messing around. I couldn't stop laughing, "nah." I said with a cheeky grin. "You," I started talking to Renae, "need to take a picture with me because it's your first time coming to one of my football games." I smiled at the excuse I made to get a picture with her. She's seemed to hesitate, "Um..." I guess she doesn't like pictures, but that's to bad, she's getting one with me. "Come on. Stand up here with me. Here, Natalia, take it on my phone." Renae stood close to me, I put an arm around her waist while she rested her hand on my back. After my sister took the picture she showed it to me, I really like it. I showed it to Renae and she liked it as well, so with that we exchanged numbers so I could send it to her. "Bub," my sister called me, I call her sissy and she calls be bub or bubby, childish I know but we grew up calling each other that, "it's 7:28, you should go before your coach starts going off on you guys." I nodded and gave her a hug, I could just give her one and not Renae. I gave Renae a hug and whispered in her ear, "you're my good luck charm tonight. I'm playing for you." I let go and sprinted to the field. Am I flirting with her? Did she like what I said? I didn't mean to flirt, it was true. I got to my spot on the field getting ready to call out the plays, I stared at the opposite team dead in the eyes. With that... we began playing some hardcore football.

We won! I got so many touchdowns I think I lost count! This team used to be undefeated, but not anymore. Football is my only place to take out my anger and I love it, even when I'm not angry. We had a team talk after our game and when we were done, Adam and I went up to the bleachers with my sister and Renae. When I got to where they were sitting people started to crowd around me giving pats on the back and congratulating words. I was happy. I gave my sister a hug and she was excited for me, I got the most touchdowns I have ever gotten before! She smiled, her and Adam went to my car because I was giving them a ride.

They left me and Renae as the only ones in the bleachers. Thanks guys. "You did great out there." she said with a shy smile spreading across her lovely face. "Thank you." I smiled getting slightly closer to her. She looked down and smiled. "So this is the first football game you've every been too? I'm glad it's mine." I said with a smile. She nodded and bit her lip. "Look at me." I noticed her look up as slow as possible, she was still smiling. "You're beautiful..." I whispered as our faces somehow got closer. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her close so our bodies were now touching. I stared into her eyes. They were green... so so green. Did she want to kiss me? I want to kiss her. If I do kiss her, would she kiss me back? I guess all I would have to do now is find out. I leaned in and kissed her. I kissed her like I meant it.

"Uh... Derrick?" She trailed me out of my daydream. "Huh?" I snapped out of it. "I said you did great out there. You're staring at me funny." Her face turned red. I must've trailed out for a long time. Oops. "Oh, yeah, sorry I got kind of distracted. Uh... thanks by the why." I laughed nervously. I feel like I just blew this nice moment. "Anyways, you need a ride home, right?" I asked changing the subject quickly. "Oh, yes please." She smiled and we walked to my truck. In my truck were Adam and my sister, I had forgot about them. They were both on their phones, go figure, they always are. Adam and Natalia acted like brother and sister, I'm glad because I wasn't letting my best friend date my sister. I got into my drivers spot and let Renae sit in the passenger seat. I turned on the radio and started to drive. I love driving at night, it's soothing, but not to the point where I fall asleep. After a while I got to Renae's house. "Hey Renae, thanks again for coming." She nodded obviously very tired and worn out, probably more than me. "It's no problem." She whispered getting out of my pickup truck. "Hey uh, text me, yeah?" I bit my lip hard. She smiled and nodded, going to her house quietly. I drove back to my house with Adam and Natalia. Natalia went straight to bed while Adam and I went to my room. "Are you okay, man?" Adam asked as we were laying on my bed in silence. I nodded, I could be sensitive when I wanted to be, but I don't show it in front of everyone, only my sister and Adam because most people say sensitive guys are gay. I am not gay, that's for sure. "I just miss them a lot," Adam nodded slow understandingly, "I just don't get why they had to go." I turned my back to him already ready for bed. "I know it's hard. They're in a better place now, I promise." He patted my back, that's the last thing I heard and felt until I fell asleep.

Author's Note: Going to double update since I didn't update in 4 days!!