Our Eternal Ruin (Auslly)

38. The wedding

"Austin, wanted to do things a little different." He winked at Ally. "So, son, I'll just let you take it from here with your vows."

He handed me the three rings that would belong to Ally.

Looking into her dark brown eyes was so distracting it was hard to remember what I was going to say. My entire body shook with the emotion of the moment. I would never get this moment again. I wanted to do it right—the first time.

"The first ring," I murmured, sliding the platinum diamond encrusted band up her finger, "represents your past. Your parents, your life in small town you hate, your first year at college, and finally the hospital room. There are ten diamonds in this band, representing every item you put on your bucket list. These diamonds are a reminder of how far you've come."

I cleared my throat and slipped the next band on her finger. This one was a three-carat solitaire. "This band is the present. This moment. Right now. Every time you look down at this ring, I want you to remember the way you looked on this day. The way you made me feel. And since you can't see yourself and since you can't read my mind..." Tears filled Ally's eyes as I gripped her hand tighter.

"You look like an angel. Like the first person a dying man would see when he was granted access into heaven. Your skin is glowing so much that it almost hurts to look at you, the way your hair falls against that same glowing skin is so distracting that I don't know where to look first. Your eyes are really clear, because you've been crying, and your lips are a bit swollen from licking them too much, something you do when you get nervous." I placed her hand over my heart.

"And right now I feel like I can do anything. My heart feels strong for you, my desire isn't just to marry you and let this be our moment, Ally. I want to marry you and create a million moments every single day. Which is why..." I slipped on the next ring. It matched the first one. "This ring has ten stones. I figure that we should just keep it an even number when it comes to lists. Just because the last list was finished, doesn't mean we can't create a new one. On this list, I see kids, careers, our first house, possibly our first big fight where you make me sleep on the couch. This last ring is our future, Ally. We complete our lists together, we complete our life together. This is what we have to look forward to. Blank pages just waiting to be filled with our story. And the cool part? We don't know what's going to happen, but I can make a promise to you right now. Your hand's going to be in mine the entire time. Ally, I swear to never let you go. Through sickness, through health, through happy times, through sad times. I'm yours."

JoBob handed my band to Ally, she took it and looked down than looked back up at me. "I don't—I didn't prepare anything, there was no time and—"

"Words were never needed between us, Ally," I said softly. "You know that. I can hear your heart. That's all that matters." I rested my hand against her chest and smiled as she slowly took my other hand. She squinted at the writing on the band.

"It says my name?"

"Yeah."

"With a heart?"

"Just in case I need you to keep me going and you aren't around." I smiled. "I'll just look down and remember, you're with me. Forever. Always."

"I am." Ally slipped the ring on my finger and then placed her hand over mine.

"I know this isn't your dream wedding in a little church in some countryside. And it's not been as traditional as the ones you read about in your books. Plus I can sense a part of you still wants to punch me for dragging you back here. But in all honestly, this is the most perfect place for us to marry. Because why live life with bad memories, when you can change them into great ones."

"This my biggest dream is you. And this day has been perfect. Better." She whispered.

"Well then, by the power vested in me from Mike Moon and that handy little online tutorial..." JoBob winked. "I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. Moon. Son, you kiss that bride of yours."

Our mouths collided, meeting in the middle. Kind of how our relationship was, the perfect give and take.

My fingers dug into Ally's hair as I pulled her closer to me.

She wrapped her arms around my neck.

I couldn't stop kissing her.

Time paused for me—in that moment it was like the sun had stopped shining, the earth had stopped its movement on its axis.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the table.

The very table that I had lain on months ago.

I remembered the cold metal of the instruments they hooked me up to, the slow steady beat of my heart on the monitor.

Ally stepped back from me, turning our kiss into a hug. Everyone clapped but my eyes were still on the table.

Angela had held my hand as I fell asleep.

Funny, because she held my hand during the surgery. I'd felt it. I had felt her warm palm, the imprint of the ring against my skin.

I could have lost my faith in that moment, instead I chose to believe that I couldn't control the outcome and just trusted in the hand that was holding mine. Sometimes that's all we have. A hand.

But most the time.

If we're being completely honest with ourselves.

It's all we really need.

My eyes flickered to the door. I could have sworn in that moment, I saw a nurse with blonde hair smiling, and then, as if I'd just imagined it, the figure disappeared.

My dad moved to stand in front of me, and pulled me in for a hug. "Your mom would have been so proud."

I smiled and stared at the door. "Yeah. I know."

As we leave the building, thanking and hugging the hospital staff, I look over at Ally.

My wife.

Wife. Damn, I'll never get tiered of saying that.

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I know that people only wear one ring but let's twist it up a bit .