The voices don't stop. I feel like I'm going to break, I know I'm going to break. These emotions consume me, cloud me, make me lose sight of my true self.
I don't want to hurt anyone, but it's impossible to resist the urge to scream, to end it all. Why am I sacrificing myself like this?
I've suffered enough. Everything was supposed to be better now.
"I love you."
Suddenly, I hear her voice and my heart calms.
She will love me forever, no matter what I do or say. By her side, even the darkness is comforting.
So nothing matters, nothing but her.
"I love you."
"..."
It's funny. Even though this is the place where I'm happiest, I can't remember it most of the time.
It doesn't really matter. At some point I'll remember. For now, I should just relax and enjoy the moment.
"I love you."
She noticed my reverie and squeezed my arm to get my attention. Her eyes radiated love, as did the rest of her.
Finally, I turned to her and placed my hand on her face, caressing her cheek. I smiled as she shuddered with happiness at my touch.
"I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you..."
"Shh." I placed my finger on her lips as I brought my face closer to hers. "I know."
I lowered my thumb to her chin, clearing the path. She moaned softly in anticipation.
Then I kissed her.
I woke up dizzy and confused. I felt pain all over my body. Plus, something was pressing hard on me, severely limiting my mobility.
It took me a while to realize I was tied hand and foot. They'd even blindfolded me, leaving me completely incapacitated.
"Hello? If anyone's there, I want to clarify that I'm not interested in sadomasochism. It's true that I'm inexperienced in the sexual realm, but I like it classic and I'm not willing to experiment with my ass to discover if I have other tendencies."
"Is that the first thing you said?" Ryuzu sighed. Since I couldn't see her, it was hard to tell which one it was, but my nose managed to pick up her distinctive scent, identifying her as Shima. "You're quite carefree."
"Not really. It's just a defense mechanism to avoid mental breakdowns." I explained, trying to find my bearings in space-time, since my memories of the last hour were hazy. "I think I did some stupid things before I passed out. What happened to the others?"
"Gabo survived, but he hasn't woken up yet. As for your companions, they're physically fine, but... Well, you can imagine, right?"
"Ugh."
I moaned, but it wasn't from pain, but from stress. When I made the decision to save the sisters, I considered the risks of using the miasma to disinhibit my brain. I knew my personality would be severely affected, and that would be a problem. Incidentally, I learned that technique in my other life.
I had to thank my doppelganger. If it weren't for his expertise, I'd already be on my seventh loop.
"Where are they?"
"I sent them back. I wanted to deal with you alone."
That was logical. After the display I put on, no one in their right mind would let their guard down around me.
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A Random in Re:Zero
FanfictionWhat would happen if someone else took Subaru's place in the story? What would his path, his decisions, and his relationship with the characters be like? Would he have more power or intelligence than Subaru? Would he choose the same route, take an a...
