"How does it feel?"
"How does what feel?"
Mikasa smiled down at her cup of tea. "How does it feel carrying a child?" She asked again.
"Amazing, on so many levels.." Annie replied. "I'm enjoying it as much as I can."
"I wish I could experience it."
The blonde looked at her friend in disbelief. "Why don't you? I thought Eren would enjoy being a father? Have you two ever talked about it?"
Mikasa couldn't help the pathetic laugh from escaping. "We're not even married and anytime I bring it up, he changes the subject. Sometimes I just question his feelings. Having a family is all I wanted and to be there for them like Erens' was for me."
"I know he loves you deeply, Mikasa. You should see the way he looks at you. Eren is dense at times, sure. But, just be straight with him and maybe it will all work out." She replied. "Love takes work, and love takes time."
Mikasa nodded. "Thanks Annie. I'm glad that I can talk about this with you. Although, I'm not too sure if I can take you seriously with all those cookies in your mouth."
"It's called 'eating for two'!" Both laughed at her stuffed cheeks.
Then, Sasha decided to make her grand entrance. "Hey guys!! Sorry I'm late, Connie was taking his time at home with Potato so I couldn't get away."
Potato was their pet dog. Yes, strange for a name but Sasha picked it out and the poor thing can't leave her side without Connie there to pry him off. They may not have the best relationship in their group of friends. Their love is different.
"Potato is getting big." Mikasa added in. "He was just a puppy last month."
Sasha started eating her lunch. "I know right?! Our baby is getting so FAT! And I love it!!"
I sometimes wonder why I still invite Sasha to lunch with us. Annie thought as she watched the scene in front of her. Because she's your friend. Of course.
The next hour was filled with girl chitchat about the guys and work. Until both of their lunch breaks were over.
"Well. Thank you again for inviting us to lunch as usual. It's time to head back to HQ, Sasha." Mikasa picked her up from the chair. "Say thank you."
She waved while getting dragged out of the cabin. "Right! Thanks again Annie!!"
"Bye." Annie sighed.
How she wished to fight outside the walls again. To study with Hanji.. Well. Not really with her. But since their 'baby news', commander Erwin told her to take it easy and work on simple things at the office. Which is something that only Armin enjoys doing.
Time to clean up. She looked down at the table and sighed once again. This is now her exciting life.
.
Tonight was the usual. Armin had his face mask on and was reading his book next to her on the bed.
Annie thought about Mikasa and Erens relationship since today at lunch. Why doesn't Eren want to proceed with marriage or kids?
This hard thinking made her hungry. Of course her craving for the week was butter and luckily she had half-a-tub under her side of the bed.
"I often wonder how much of that you can eat." Armin said while putting his glasses away and placing the book down. "That's all I buy nowadays."
She smiled innocently at his complaint and took the last bite of the golden substance as if it was ice cream. Annie kissed his lips. "Deal with it." She replied before turning off the lamp. "Goodnight my beautiful wife."
"Goodnight." He replied while laying down beside her. "Wait what?!"
.
It must have been 2 in the morning when Annie felt a sharp pain. Her body instantly shot out to the lamp. The light filled the room as she winced at the feeling that passed by.
What's going on? Annie couldn't help the panic starting to rise when she felt around her. It's wet?
She noticed red. Blood stained the sheets all around her. The only thought ran through her head. Why now?
"A-Armin." Her voice was barely over a whisper as she shook her husband awake.
He noticed the slight panic wavering her calling. "Annie. What's wrong?" Armin sat up to notice her side of the bed was tainted and soaked with blood from her lower half.
Annie's eyes were full with shock as she leaned against his chest. The tears slowly starting coming out and eventually he was silently bawling his shirt.
Armin couldn't help but cry with her. They just lost their only child. A human being that was made by both of them. Now gone.
No words were said for the longest time.
He wiped his tears. Armin had to be there for her, like she was for him. "Annie. It's okay.. We knew this would happen."
"You're right but, I c-can't help it." Annie looked up at him. "I'm the reason why it couldn't l-live."
Armin kissed her tears away. "No. It's not. He or She will be in our memories, forever."
October 1st @ 2:36 in the morning, was when I lost my first child.
