LEARNING TO WRITE RIGHT!

INTRODUCTION OF SHAME

11/8/2025

I've never been good at writing books....well actually thats a lie. I'm average. A person with many ideas but have no way of getting them out of my brain and on to paper. I would say i use my right side of my brain more but that would be a lie....

....I use no side of the brain, only my heart.

But alas, in this world the brain is just as and maybe even more important than the heart.

This is going to be my autobiography of how i'm going to become better at writing.

It's funny how i even got here....a 14 year old who hated writing and reading is now intrigued by it.

I was just talking to uhh....("it's too embarrassing to say but guess") out of boredom. 

 My characters name? Erica. Always loved that name. She was based on me but with a slight twist. 

And I can admit, she's a bit of a Mary sue and in my actual fanfic i prefer the side characters. 

I guess i'm just such an annoying Mary sue then.

So i made her less like me. The whole world judges her, she's not that pretty, her emotions control her powers more than her so she tries to always stay calm and never cry, she's gonna get so much trauma by when season 4 is written and she tries to help everyone but can never reach them in time and she learns to hate herself for it.

She became a real protagonist.

And she deserves to have her story....

So then...it's written. The plot line, ideas, characters, emotions....all mine....but who written it? 

Not entirely me....

Pathetic i am. Absolutely Pathetic.

I hate that about me. I tricked myself, saying that it was just the backbone, just the structure, just the bones of the full body and that i get to place the organs, flesh and blood......

But that body isn't entirely mine, my book isn't fully my child.

~I'm like a divorced man who doesn't get custody of his only beautiful child. The mother gets it because that they produced it, she never even wanted this child nor cares about it.

Its not fair, i wanted the child more, i love my son. Why should she have him? why should she take all the credit. IT WAS MY SPERM THAT SWAM! NOT HER SELFISH OVUM.~

Personally i think mothers are better to raise a child. Most of them just have a more.... nurturing side. But that doesn't mean in all situations that it's best. Overall i think it's good for a child to see their mother and father and to have both parents to be in their lives.

I hate that.

I want to produce my child asexually. This fanfic will be produced asexually.

I will create it by myself....

I will be the man and the woman.....

I will make it myself and only myself.....

...as soon as the first child is done of course, i would like to raise my son as best as i can without any distractions.

Then from my mistakes i shall learn and raise my daughter to be even better.

I saw a website that says with practice i can do get good at writing in a month....lets see if i can stick with it.

(Im also good at procrastinating so ill try to post as much as i can!)