Secrets of an Introvert

When Will It End?

When will it stop?
When will it end?
Every time I close my eyes
I see you in my head

I know you're out of my league
And that we're worlds apart
Even though we barely know each other
You are always in my heart

I hear your voice wherever I go
The reason I can't sleep at night
You're always there, in my thoughts
No matter how much I try to fight

I push my face into my pillow
And scrunch my eyes up tight
But it does no good, there you stay
Until the morning lightBut even then, you're my first thought

I just can't seem to forget you
No matter where I am
You are always there tooI can take the smallest of things
And connect them in some way to you

It drives me crazy all day long
But often makes me smile tooI love you, but I hate you
I'm stuck in this vicious circle
You are never far from my thoughts
If only I could be more verbal

Sometimes I think
About telling you the truth
But then I remember how crazy it seems
That I could even be in love with you

Maybe I am; maybe I'm not
I've never felt this way before
It's difficult to know either way
But here's what I know for sure

No matter how much you annoy me
I just can't let you go
So tell me when will it end?
This idea that we are so

On track to something great
I swear you are the one
But in reality it's just a dream
That I can't seem to wake up from

Every single day
I get lost in you a little bit more
I let myself fall for you
Until I am on the floor

Screaming out loud
When I can't get you out of my head
Will it ever end?
Because deep down I do dread

That I will never be over you
Even though you don't like me back
The way that I like you
You are my light when everything turns black

Which is why I could never cut you out of my life
No matter how hard I try
I've so many failed attempts
To see if without you I can fly

But I always come back to you
I guess it was written in the stars
We clearly have a connection
But maybe this time isn't ours

Perhaps in another life we were together
Maybe we had it all
If only that could happen now
I would no longer need to bawl

My eyes out every time
I hear that one particular song
And I wouldn't be here writing
This poem about how much I long

For you to finally look my way
Because you'd already be mine
But of course that is not to be
So I hope that one day I'll be fine

Without you in my life
It's the only way I'll survive
If I could finally just let you go
Maybe then I will surely thrive

But until that time
You'll be stuck in my head
Playing on a loop forever
Not knowing any of this that I've said

It sucks you'll never know
Just how much I care
No one will ever love you as much as me
But together as one, we will never be there

So, I hope one day it'll all be over
And I won't give you a second thought
I'll finally be happy
Having won this battle that I so bravely fought