Secrets of an Introvert

Gone

Our goodbye is but a blur now
Safe for the hug you gave me
Before I walked out that door
And your face again, never will I see

My mind still thinks of you
At the most random of times
Always at night, you find your way back there
It is nothing but a crime

That I could feel this way about someone I barely know
Someone who can never be mine
Yet I don't even give one care in the world
When your smile takes me to cloud nine

I know you'll never think of me once more
You have better things to fill your life with now
So you'll never know just how hard I fell
That first day when

You took your guitar
And played a silly song
You never noticed my smile
That was the beginning of many more

From then you were my sunshine
On the rainiest of days
The one I could always run to
To whom anything I could say

Except that's over now;
Never again can I confide in you
Or ask advice from,
Nor have a laugh with too

There were many a time
When I was yours instead
But then I woke up to reality
Knowing it was all in my head

It's funny, how once upon a time
I wanted you out of my life
And now that 'wish' has come true
It does no more than cut like a knife

Reality has hit too hard
That your voice will never fill my days
Your face will never brighten my heart
Your smile will never bring me out of my haze

But our time together will never be forgotten
Yet, with every thought of you,
I don't know whether to laugh or cry;
Whether to hate or miss you too

Life's too short to cling onto you I know
But the memories I will keep
It's the only way to keep you alive
Through my dreams as I sleep

To pretend you're still here with me
Is the only way I'll make it through
The loneliest of times
Until I find someone good enough to replace you