A Random in Re:Zero

Loop 3 - Part 6

"Then we'll talk later. Have a nice day!"

"You too."

I went back inside the mansion to take a shower and get rid of all the sweat before putting on my butler uniform.

"I have to get this loop right."

***

A few hours later, I had completed almost all of my tasks for the day and didn't feel tired at all. In fact, I was having trouble concentrating on anything other than the plan to deal with the killer.

In fact, I couldn't get Rem and Meili's deaths out of my mind. I'd never seen a dead body in my entire life, much less the moment someone died. Just remembering it made my stomach turn.

"What if he kills more people this time? What if he kills me again? I don't want to feel that damn arrow piercing my heart again."

I hated the idea of being weak, and I was terrified that this weakness would bring me unimaginable suffering in the future.

I definitely didn't want to die horrible deaths like Subaru, but that wasn't my worst fear. What I couldn't stand was watching the people I care about die, over and over again.

The power to return from the dead was incredible and perfect for saving the world, but it was also potentially torture for the user.

"I have almost no information about the killer. I'm not sure the plan I made will work."

My thoughts had gradually turned pessimistic as the moment of truth drew near. Today was the day the killer would strike, according to the previous loop.

I began to think about the many ways everything could go wrong. I was overwhelmed by the knowledge that if something went wrong, the deaths that occurred would weigh on my conscience.

I tried to use the mop to dry the floor and dropped it from my shaking hands. I bent down to pick it up, and when I tried to stand up, my legs gave out.

"Come on, damn it..."

But I couldn't control it anymore. A feeling of suffocating pressure had spread from my chest, and a chill had begun to settle in the pit of my stomach, making it hard to think clearly.

Deep down, I had already accepted the possibility that I wouldn't survive this fourth day either.

"A panic attack? Really, right now?"

"What's wrong with you?" I heard Rem's voice approaching, so damn well timed.

"I-I have a cramp in my leg." I managed to say in a weak voice.

"As pathetic as ever. Looks like your training was useless." Ram mocked.

"Not as useless as your bra..."

"Do you have a death wish?" The pink-haired maid released a dangerous aura.

With both twins here, I had no choice but to act normal so they wouldn't suspect anything. I took a deep breath to calm myself and stood up as if nothing had happened.

"Is it time to go to town?" I looked at Rem, hoping she would confirm my assumption.

"That's correct." She nodded, her eyes fixed on my trembling hands. Realizing this, I quickly hid them behind my back.

"L-Let's go then..."

Ignoring the hateful look Ram gave me for my comment about her bust, I followed Rem outside. We headed down the tree-lined path.

The moment of truth was approaching. My heart began to race again. I felt like somebody's watching me. But I didn't think about it too much, it's my anxiety.