Hidden Pain (BoyxBoy-Jastin)

My Flashlight

"Umm. I know people have been questioning my situation and as much that I don't want to talk about it, but I know people will still keep making their own speculation. It's been hard enough for my family to dealt with me, and with this false accusation going around doesn't make it easier. I just want all of you out there to give a little compassion towards us. If you hate me so much, you got what you haters have been praying for. For me to get hurt. And I did. And it will scar me for life." Justin paused again. He could feel his hands tremble at his anxiety kick in. Before he ran short of breath, he felt a comfort hand holding his caressing them soothingly.

He took a deep breath clearing his throat. "I would never in my life asked for anyone out there to go through what I went through. Recovering have been hard for me and I'm thankful for all the prayers and support out there." He finish. Ellen look at the boy in sympathy.

Justin POV

I sigh in relieve as I look out the window. We're on our way back home now. The interview went well. After my little speech, Ellen just asked some random question and I'm thankful she didn't make me feel awkward in a way. And I'm thankful that Jason was with me the whole time. I didn't mean to drag him with me but I just know that I will feel less nervous with Jason besides me.

The car stops showing we finally arrive at the hotel. The car door open revealing Kenny smiling small at me. I hop out of the car with Jason behind me. I shivered at how cold the weather outside here. "Come on let's go inside. You're freezing." Jason leads me inside with the crew behind us. Mom and Dad have to went somewhere with Scooter leaving me with Jason, Kenny, Allison, Ry Good, Fredo. Even Dan Kanter is here with me.

Jason closed the door as he says goo night to Kenny whose room is just beside us if anything happens. I sat on the bed ready in my pajamas just playing with my fingers. "Are you alright?" Jason asked sitting in front of me. I hug my knees and lay my chin on them. "I'm fine I guess." I sigh feeling exhausted. "You did a great job just now. Another reason to say that you're such a strong person." Jason smiled at me. I bite my cheek from the inside.

"Thanks to you." I mumble closing my eyes. Then I felt a hand on my cheek caressing them softly. I open my eyes to be met with Jason's blue one. "Why did you thank me for?" he asked confuse. "You were there with me... and I felt some sort of comfort to go on with it. Thanks Jason." I said above whisper.

Jason slide under the cover pulling me with him. He pulled me to his chest where I sigh in content. "One day you will realize that you are a strong person Justin. And you have no one to thank but yourself for trying to be better. You will always be my inspiration baby boy." Jason spoke as he kiss my forehead and hold me tighter and securely.

The sun shine through my eyes making me flutter them open slowly as I turn and push my face in to the pillow. I try to reach for Jason but all I felt was emptiness beside me. I rose up immediately feeling panic. Where's Jason? I look around seeing no one was with me. I remove the blanket from my leg getting out of the bed. I walk towards the bathroom and hearing nothing from the inside. I frown walking to the kitchen area now.

It was also empty. "Jase?" I finally call his name rubbing my arms at how cold I feel right now. I got no answer in return. "Jason? Where are you?" I raise my voice a bit walking back towards our bed. I search for my phone but couldn't find them. I practically search the whole room but couldn't find them. I got so frustrated that I throw myself on the bed. I felt like crying. I'm all alone in this big room and Jason has been gone for an hour now since I wake up, maybe he left me longer than that.

I wanted to go out and search for Kenny or something but I'm scared to get out of the room. I end up stuffing my face on the pillow feeling bored out of my mind. Then I heard the door open and close. I sit up my body as Jason's face appeared in front of me. "Hey Baby boy." He greet making his way towards me. I didn't say anything as I stuff my face in to the pillow.

"Are you okay Jay?" he asked with concern in his voice. I ignore him again. "Justin?" he repeat now tapping my shoulder. "Go away Jason." I mumble in to the pillow. "What? Why? What happen?" he sounds panic now. I lift my head up and look at him with a glare. "You left me here all alone and I cant even find my phone. And you know how much I'm scared to go out and call someone." I complain sitting up now.

The frown on his face then turns to a grin. "Awww my baby boy." He spoke pulling me to his chest which I struggle to get away from him. "I'm sorry alright. It's just that you were sleeping peacefully that I didn't want to wake you up. I was just hanging out with Fredo and Kenny for a while." He kept rubbing my back. I finally manage to get out of his grip. "Well, you could've leave some notes or something and where's my phone?" I asked again.

He smile sheepishly going to one of the drawer and took it out handing it to me. I look at him with wide eyes. "I checked there just now and it wasn't there." I told him as I'm sure I looked everywhere. "Your too cute sometimes." He peck my cheek and drag me to the kitchen. He sat me down on one of the stool as he took out something from a plastic beg. I look around playing with my lips to occupied my waiting. Jason then put a plate of food in front of me.

I look up at him confuse. "I know you don't feel like going down to eat with the others and with everyone will recognize you and all, so I bring the food up for you." He smile at me. I couldn't help but to smile back at how thoughtful he is towards me. "Thank you Jason." I said above whisper. "No biggie baby boy." He grin making me blush as I took a bite of my sandwich.

I could feel his stare as I eat my food slowly but I didn't find it creepy. Jason always like to stare at me when I'm doing something. I don't think in a creepy way, I used to ask him one and all he answered. "Your too beautiful not to stare at." Which of course shut me up from questioning any further. I finally done with my food. Jason took them to the sink and make his way towards me. I watch his every move as he took my hand and lead me to living room of the hotel room.

He make ma stand in the middle and went to the music player at the side of the plasma TV. He continue to fix something and seconds later a song came on. He gave me a charming smile and put both my hand around his neck, his hands on my waist. He sway us gently as he began lip sync to the song.

When tomorrow comes

I'll be on my own

Feeling frightened of

The things that I don't know

When tomorrow comes

Tomorrow comes

Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long

I look up to the sky

And In the dark I found, I stop and I won't fly

And I sing along, I sing along, then I sing along

I got all I need when I got you and I

I look around me, and see sweet life

He move us along with the song smiling down at me and kissed my forehead gently. I closed my eyes enjoying this moment.

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes

I can't lie, it's a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

He continue the whole song as I lay my head on his shoulder him holding me closer. He hum the song in my ear making me feel content, safe, secure, and loved. He's my Flashlight too.

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