Holly Peterson skyrocketed to fame by simply sitting in her worn-out car, recording her candid thoughts, and sharing them online. Success came swiftly, propelling her into the spotlight and into a whirlwind romance with a fellow celebrity-a high-pro...
He gives me a wary smile. "The it'll pass comment?" He asks, the mere memory making me groan in embarrassment.
"Please don't remind me. It was shitty, and I'm sorry. I just — I think it was the defence mechanisms going into effect — not that it excuses it, I just — well, yeah. I'm sorry."
He simply smiles, and hands me my cigarette. "It's alright, I get it."
Now I'm confused. "You're not mad?"
He shakes his head. "Why would I be? I was a little upset about it at first, but I could tell you were — how to put — struggling. Why would I be angry with you for that?"
He's not Matthew.
"Right."
He cocks his head to the side, cigarette in between his lips. "Lighter?"
"Actually, I got you a present. Sort of a sorry present, but also —" I say, reaching into my bag, and pulling out a box.
He takes it, and laughs when he opens it. "A personalised lighter, very classy," he says, holding it up and twirling it around in his fingers. "So you don't pester me for one," he reads out the tiny engraving on the front.
"Don't lose that one," I warn him, as he lights his cigarette with it.
"I would never. But I'm still going to pester you for a lighter, you know that, right?"
I nod my head. "Unfortunately, yes I do know that. Anyway — I interrupted you earlier. What were you going to say?"
"Am I allowed to talk freely about what happened in Rome?" He asks, shooting me a cautious glance.
Holly a few weeks ago would've stood up and left. Even Holly from a few days ago would've shook her head and felt close to tears. But right now — I just nodded my head.
"Sure."
"Did you mean what you said? That there were real feelings involved?" He asked, and it took every ounce of mental strength to answer his question truthfully.
"Yeah," I replied, not missing the slight waver in my voice as I tried to keep it steady.
"I meant what I said, too. There were feelings on my side," he says, reiterating his words from a few weeks ago.
"Yeah," I repeat myself. "I know."
"I know your reasons for the decisions you've made so far, but is your mind set on this? Is it ever going to change?" He asks, and it was the question of the century.
Was my mind going to change?
Would I be living? Truly living?
"I don't know," I answer, because it's the truth. It's not a no, yet it's also not a yes.
Despite the vague answer — technically, non answer, his smile only grows, as if he wanted that response.
"You look incredibly happy to hear that," I tell him wryly, looking at him suspiciously.
"Well, I have this proposal — idea, if you'd like," he says, and it's all very intriguing.
"I'm listening."
"One month. Give me one month to prove to you that we can keep this — whatever this is, private, and for you to feel okay about it. A trial month, if you will," he says, and like usual, there are alarm bells ringing in my head, but for the first time, I'm able to dull them, to overcome them.
"I —"
"Take a chance on me, Holly. On us."
There were so many ways this could backfire. But there were so many ways it could turn out amazingly.
I was terrified. Of being found out. Of being on the receiving end of backlash and hate once again. But the scariest thing of all? The possibility of falling in love with him.
"I — alright. One month," I agreed, after just a few moments of hesitation.
"One month," he reiterated.
"You can wipe that stupid grin off your face," I say, rolling my eyes at him as he only just smiled even wider.
"Why would I? I'm a happy man," he beamed, finishing his cigarette.
"You sound crazy," I laughed, but as it turned out — he wasn't the only happy one.
Was I terrified? Completely.
Was I happy? The happiest in a long time.
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@hollypeterson: low res forever (guys i just hit 14 mil on youtube what is happening)
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@wroetoshaw: Gonna take over me at some point 😐
@hollypeterson: not my fault you ghosted your main channel
