Aftermath

5.| Metaphysics

And there he saw a tall girl, hair pinned in a loose bun, after two agonizing years, he saw her, he saw her walking towards the restaurant's door... Entering the restaurant... Walking towards her friends' table... Talking to her friends... Then suddenly everything went slow-motion as he saw her about-face towards their table... Looking straight into his eyes... And him looking back at her... He doesn't need to force their meeting, it came without warning... After two years, their paths crossed again.

I was just looking at her for i don't know how long. I don't know what to say. I can hear Suzy speaking but my mind can't comprehend to what she's saying. I'm waiting for her to break our eye contact, and she did. She did after giving me a smile. An acknowledgement smile. She smiled... At me!! It's not what i hoped for but at least it's not what i dreaded for. I was hoping for her sweet smile, i know it's impossible but there's no harm in hoping for something you terribly miss. I'm glad i didn't get any sort of indignant look from her.

I was about to smile back when she averted her gaze back to her friends. She sat down on her seat, her back facing us. Kim handed her the menu. She was busy looking at the menu... Taking her time choosing what to order. I can't abort my stare. I was just looking at her. I don't know if she felt it, that someone's looking at her so she turned her back and she's now looking at me... AGAIN!! And she smiled at me AGAIN and made a salute sign then went back to minding the menu in her hands. TANGINA! KIEFER! BUHAY KA PA? GALAW-GALAW BRO! My mind bawled at me. But i can't! It's as if I am paralyzed. I can't think straight. I was staring at her. Just staring at her. I can't even smile back at her.

I longed for this day, this is what i've been wishing, dreaming and waiting for! I'm ready for this encounter, i thought about this and what should i do when i'm in the situation. PERO AYAW GUMANA NG UTAK KO! AYAW GUMALAW NG KATAWAN KO PARA MAG HI MAN LANG!

My own staring game is so strong that i can't call a time-out. Naka order na siya at lahat pero nakatitig parin ako, kahit nakatalikod siya.

Her hair, her crowning glory, it's tied in a loose bun. She can tie her hair together now. Before, all she can plait was her bangs. I want to untie her hair, let it flow and see it for myself how long it has grown. When we were still together, she would ask me if i want to see her sporting a long hair, i just told her that she call the shots, i know if i said yes, she would not hesitate letting it grow. I smiled. She never knew it was a secret dream for me seeing her with long hair. I smiled bitterly. Kung gaano kahaba ang buhok niya, ganon na din katagal na wala ako sa buhay niya.

Her shoulder, my second favorite part of her body. I find her sexy with those shoulder, damn those shoulder blades, but behind that sexiness lies my load bearer. They can see her lying on my shoulder but rarely they know that her shoulder were my burden carrier. Regardless of the weight of my problem, she will offer her shoulder and surprisingly, everything becomes lighter. Sobrang bigat ng problemang naibigay ko sa balikat niya, pero hindi siya nag reklamo kahit minsan.

Her back, i miss how i back hug her and she'll just rest her back on my chest. She told me that a person's back provides the greatest support for one's body but whenever she's with me, without hesitation she'll let her guards down, and let me be her support. She has her flaws, she's not proud of them but she showed them to me anyways. That's how gigantic her trust for me, giving me the full rights to see her soul, to stand up for her, to back her up and to never let her down. Hindi ko pinahalagahan yung pagsandal niya sakin, ginamit ko pa yung tiwala niya para ibaba siya.