+ + Something Sweeter ++ - Chanlix

++ 11 ++

[TW: suicide attempt/suicide, self harm and mentions of abuse and murder]

Thunder. Stormy, loud, terrifying thunder. That striked in the skies and fogged up the streets as Something Sweet was shrouded in darkness.

That was probably Felix's thirteenth reason.

Thunder scared Felix anyway, let alone when he knew his lover was potentially out in it without him there to make sure he was okay. Yes, Felix had the offer to come out with him but he was mentally exhausted and both him and Chris could tell he wasn't up for it. Which was good as well as it was bad, very very bad.

Chris was out with Jisung and Hyunjin. He needed to see them after, just as it had happened for Chris and Felix, the photos from the New Years Eve party had been leaked and Hyunjin and Jisung's relationship had been revealed to the public. Before they were ready. Jisung was no longer hiding behind the shipping of him and Minho and Hyunjin was no longer hiding behind the idea the world had that he was straight. They had to come forward and explain that they were married, happily of course, but still had to come out formally and in a way they never wanted to. They needed to see their best friend.

Minho and Jeongin were also supposed to go out with them, as they had also been unhelpfully outed by the photo leak of NYE but they just posted a pic of them kissing to Minho's instagram story and they were all good. Half of Minho's fandom shipped them anyway, as Jeongin was never hidden from the media's sight. However, the reason they weren't attending the get-together with the rest of their friendship group was due to the fact that Mr. Yang had, as you can probably guess, fallen down yet another elevator shaft (that honestly must be the reason why he had written a song called Hellevator) and was in hospital for the time-being.

That was one reason. Felix was alone, in his home (not for the first time, but not at the best time considering the mental state he was in), there was a storm outside and Chris was out somewhere Felix didn't know the exact location of, during it. That's only part of the situation too.

A few weeks had passed since the meal he had had with his Mum, sisters and the partners that tagged along as they do. Felix genuinely believed it was the start of a new chapter for their family, connecting and finally some pure family joy and love. But no, that's never the way it goes for them.

The night of the meal, Rachel had gone outside for a quick cigarette break (and yes, that was the way Felix discovered she smoked) and Felix had decided to tag along just so he could talk to her about something. That was his big sister after all, he felt she would rather know than go without knowing. He told her about his attempt, and when she asked for further details, he gave them. He should've imagined that Rachel wouldn't have let that pass nor let their mum get away with that on top of all the other shit she had done to them.

So when Rachel, Abby, Olivia and his mum had travelled back to Australia a week later, Felix didn't necessarily know how to feel when he got a call from Rachel a few days after that saying she had reported their mother to the police for everything she had done to them and that she was at court.

It wasn't fair, what their mother had done to them, ranging from verbal abuse from a young age to in a few cases even physical. But it wasn't fair to Felix that so much was happening in such a short window of time. It wasn't fair to his father either, who Felix soon after got a call from Rachel revealing that their mum had been arrested not only for what she had done to them but for murdering him. She had killed his father.

Felix hadn't spoken to Chris about the phone calls he had received from his elder sister, he couldn't. It wasn't fair to Chris to be stirred into that. Not to mention that Felix had only just gotten that phone call revealing the disgusting information about what had truly happened to his dad, merely moments after Chris had left for the night and he knew Chris' friends needed him.

The poor man could hardly process any of that information he had been recieving. He felt like he couldn't breathe from the second he had put his phone down, ending the call with Rachel. He felt as though he was suffocating just at the thought of what a cruel, heartless woman he had been raised by and then the further thoughts that if she raised him - that made him just like her. And that he may one day do what she did to him and his sisters to his own children, or worse, what she did to his father to his dear fiance.

His thoughts spiralled, twisting, turning and rushing through his skull so rapidly that it gave him a throbbing headache. He was standing behind the counter, the windows giving anyone who passed by a clear view of the broken human he was, as he bawled from his eyes and failed to control his arms as they sliced down his paled skin with the blade of a knife. He watched as the blood dripped from his body, it hurt him to watch it but he just couldn't stop.

His world began to become a blur, his vision and balance unsteadying more as the clock on the wall ticked louder and louder and louder. Felix let out a pained cry of distress, everything he felt was crashing on to him, battering him from side to side, sinking into him and rising out of him simultaneously.

He was hardly aware of what time it even was, thankfully it was almost 11 o'clock at night. The time Chris swore he'd be back before.

Thankfully it was almost 11 o'clock at night, the time Chris swore he'd be back before.

"FELIX!!" Was the last thing he barely heard before his world went black, his body collapsing down onto the cold, hard ground of his beloved shop and home.

Chris didn't even lock, nor shut, the door behind him, regardless of how stormy it was outside. The weather was worse inside. Chris had taken one step into the building, after he had unlocked the door and quickly processed the situation that was happening before him. He had never shouted so loudly, it was practically a scream. A scream of terror, the moment he saw Felix fall and the moment he saw blood on that countertop.

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