+ + Something Sweeter ++ - Chanlix

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[TW: panic attack]

Despite how the pouring rain had come to resemble that of joy and sweetness for the duo, it was still stormy and gloomy rain. And it still seemed to match well to the emotions they were feeling, or at the very least that was the case for Chris.

Of course, the last thing he was feeling was sadness because he had his beloved Felix by his side again, but at the same time, he felt regret and guilt for leaving him at all in the first place. And he was scared for him, scared to lose him for good.

After Felix had told him all that had happened in Korea when he wasn't there, Chris had decided upon a few things. And one of those is to stay by his side forever, which was something he planned on doing anyway (after all, he's gonna be marrying the man) but he also couldn't stand the thought of losing him for good.

He sat in his apartment, comfortably on the faux-leather upholstered couch and somewhat at peace knowing Felix was sleeping calmly in his bed. It was probably about 12 o'clock at night, the new day approaching briskly and Chris couldn't even try to sleep. He liked his apartment, even if he liked Something Sweet more, and wanted to just sit in it for a while before he had to leave. Yes, it felt less empty and cold knowing Felix was in there with him, but still, not the same as what he truly calls home.

He had quit his job, bid his farewells to Danielle (who promised to keep him updated on life and drama through the power of Instagram DMs) and the rest of the team he worked with. He was getting evicted from the apartment the next day (damn, deja vu) but Seungmin and Changbin had willingly offered for him and Felix to stay in their guest room for the time being as they decided on what to do next.

Although Chris wasn't entirely sure what to do next anyway. Felix was terrified to go back to Korea knowing his Mum was there and probably even angrier at him for leaving without notice. But they had to go back, they couldn't just stay in London, they had to go home. Home to Something Sweet, they had to open the shop back up and finally start working as co-owners. Chris missed Korea as well, but he was scared for Felix and his mental health.

All the thinking about Felix and what's gonna happen next was causing Chris distress he didn't even know he was experiencing. At least not until he heard his fiance's deep, sleepy voice called out his name.

"Chris?"

And he was snapped back to reality, the reality that his head was in his hands as he scratched anxiously at his scalp and tears fell hurriedly down his cheeks almost as fast as the pace of his breathing. Although the reality only overwhelmed him further, as he dug his fingernails deeper into his head as he tugged at his blonde locks. And as his tears became choking sobs and his breathing became so quick and so heavy that Felix feared he was going to pass out.

"I'm sorry. Baby, I'm sorry." Was the only words that fell off Chris' trembling lips, in fact he merely repeated the words over and over again. Even when he felt his lover's arms wrapped around him and the man pulling him into his lap slightly.

"Bubba can you take a deep breath for me?" Felix advised, breathing in and out himself for the sake of both of them. Thankfully Chris put all his strength and focus into following the beat of Felix's breathing and heart. Soon becoming in sync, despite the drastic difference between the shakiness of their breaths. "Good job Darling. I'm proud of you." Felix whispered, holding Chris tight to his body as he felt him calming down.

"I'm sorry." Chris said once again, feeling Felix place a gentle kiss upon the top of his head and stroked his fingers over his hair softly.

"You have nothing to apologise for, honey." The freckled man reassured, pulling his fiance in tighter. "Can you tell me what's caused this, though? So I can try and help."

"I don't want to make you feel guilty thou-"

"The only thing that will make me feel guilty is if I can't help you." Felix cut Chris off smoothly, making sure the blonde knew it was okay to talk about it.

"Okay." Chris mumbled, tucking himself into Felix's warm touch. "I'm worried about you and what we'll do now."

Felix silently sighed, feeling the exact way he had just told Chris he wouldn't feel. He didn't show it though, he couldn't let him feel worse than he was already feeling. "We'll.... we'll figure it out. But don't worry about me, I'll be okay."

"Are you sure?" Chris sniffled, the remaining tears dripping down his cheeks and against Felix's clothes and skin.

"Yeah." That was a lie, but he didn't know how to vocalise that without scaring his lover further. "Let's get to bed."

They both slowly stood up, Felix taking Chris by the hand and pulling him gently into the bedroom. He shut the door gently behind him and knowing how drained Chris was after the panic attack, he began to carefully undress him and himself.

He pulled Chris' shirt over his head, placing it simply on the floor in a pile with his own. He then unbuckled Chris' belt and pulled it back out through the loops. He removed his jeans and pressed a soft kiss to Chris' bare chest before taking the rest of his own clothes off. He then lightly tugged Chris over to their bed and wrapped himself around his body underneath the covers. Allowing themselves to drift slowly off to sleep.

The future is uncertain, but as long as the rain keeps falling from the clouds, it'll be okay.

The future is uncertain, but as long as they're together, it'll be okay.

It'll be okay.

SOM