Red String

chapter nine.

"Good morning,sleepy." I guess it was real.

"I thought you were going to sleep all winter like bears." He giggled.

"You are so funny today as always." I said.

"Anyways, how you feel?" He asked and came near.

"Much more better." I said.

"I can drop you if you want." He said.

"Sure, would be nice." I answered.

My body was better. Life was not black and white for a moment.

He was the color.

He was the most vibrant color.

I liked seeing him staring at me.

He did something unexpected. He laid near me.

"I slept like a baby after a very long time, just because I was with you." He said and continued staring deep into my eyes.

Jonathan.

No.

"I wanna be here for you." He said and held my hand.

I was feeling goosebumps already.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because..." he said "we'd fit well."

"I can't-" I said.

"I know. I can't either. I would hurt you." He said.

"I know."

"Can I kiss you?" He asked.

I smiled and nodded positively.

Then it happened.

I let the poison in.

Scheiße.

He was kissing good.

His hands were on my hair. 

Then he stopped and sighed. 

"I wanna bang you." he said. "I wanna bang you in every position. I want to do that for a very long time." 

"What is stopping you?"

"I want you to be ready. I want you to want me.I want to feel your lust over me."he said. 

"I already have lust for you, I am just scared of getting close, because I do not want to lose you completely." I said. 

He kissed me again. This was much more intense. I was feeling his boner already. 

"You see that?I wanna do this all day with you. I want to kiss every bit of you. Everywhere. There is no exception."

"Hmm." 

"But we can wait a bit for it. Now get up and come to breakfast." he said and give me a little butterfly kiss. 

Jonathan. 

Jonathan.

He was complicated. 

And it was what I loved about him.