Cursed Loop

CHAPTER XIII

*The following contains physical assault and self harm

I woke up and excited for the date we are going to have right now. It is Sunday, a mall in the summer sounds refreshing. Summer break is nigh and for a second thought it has been a while since I loop, it's a good thing though. Just before, she promised me to buy new clothes since the last few dates we have, has been the same clothes over and over again. I wore the same as last date then go off.

I got to the mall by walking alone; she is standing there at the meet up place, waiting for me. I walk forward to her then she wave back as well as greeting me with a smile. I spoke with a monotone voice.

"You're early" *blushing and embarrassed*
"The same as you~ shall we go then?" *smiles*

She reaches out her palm to take my hand. I know holding hands are cringe but it became my everyday routine. Now that the whole school knows we are dating because of her dense head deciding to declare it at school. I got used to her whims which I somewhat worry.

While our fingers caress with each other; we stroll down to the clothing store.  The men section is full of nice clothes that is surely can't be affordable with just my budget. The fabrics are smoothly flattened and its dye vibrant the place. When I got a glimpse of the price tag (20,500$), I just closed my eyes for how rip off the store is. I can't afford to be pathetic enough to ask her everything, I still have my pride.

"____, is there something that got your eye?"
"None"
"Really?" *Surprised*
"It's not like I don't see often, I just don't have enough money"
"That is why we are here so tell me if you like something"
"Like I said, there is none"
*Pouts* "If you don't have one we will leave" *frowns*
"Wait..." *gently pulling her back* "can't we just go to a cheaper store?"
"I told you, the reason why I'm here is to buy you nice clothes. Can't you understand that I'm the one asking here?"
*Looking away* "But I can't return the fa—"
"I'm not a material girl...don't worry. As long as you're here, I'm okay"

Smiles warmly as our eyes made contact.

"Then..."

I turned to face the red nice jacket beside us. It has a nice bright color and is partnered with pants that have the same hue. It is worn by a tall mannequin.

*Blushing* "Is that oka—"
"No." *Poker face*
"Wha—"
(She said I need to pick)
"Are you alright if I style your outfit?"
"You said—"
"Is it okay?"

I know she purposely interrupt me. It makes me embarrassed; thinking what did I do wrong?

"Yes..."
"Then I'll lead the way"

She guide me to a section in which the clothes seems more expensive than before. I hesitated although her strength will always surpass me in which is inevitable. One black cloak is picked up by her then faced it in front of my body. It is deep black leathered cloak with a belt around its back waist; there are four buttons that is positioned in a square like point while the collar is widely low down my chest and is revealing, maybe it can reach my stomach.

"Do you like it?" *Proud of her pick* "Try it on and..."

She picks another one, this time it is a black polo that has some patterns of mini golden linen leafs that falls downward. The polo’s' sleeve is 3/4 however it has sleeve tabs that can reach up to my elbow. She also got me pants that are partnered with a slide belt.

"Go to that stall and change"
"Change what?"
*She looks at me seriously* "I mean switch your clothes into these temporarily"
"You can do that...?" *Got pushed torwards the stall then change*

The polo and pants is fitted which is why I find it hard to move; I feel like the clothes will rip off any second. I didn't wear the cloak because I don't know how to wear it; I will ask her about it later. I slowly opened the door a little bit to peek outside.

"Hehe~ you're cute when you're embarrassed" *smiles while having a little blush*
"Stop, I'm not embarrassed"

[He is really shy, so cute >w<]

"Then...will you please open the door widely?"
*Sighs* "Alright" *leisurely opens the door*
"Mhm~ I thought so, it's nice!" *Smirking proudly*
"Are you that happy for dressing me up?"
"Who won't though?" *Leans closer* “Seeing your masculinity is all I wanted to see~"
*startled from her boldness* "Ngh!"

In the end, we bought these clothes and both of us are now going home. She is carrying the bags that have my clothes when I'm the one who is supposed to; she insisted. When I saw an alleyway and remembered it is a shortcut to my apartment I told her.

"Hey, I think it would be better to go here"
"Hmm...It looks sketchy though, I'm okay with walking don't worry~"
"I'm not worried about you"

[He is lying; he just wants for her to take a rest early]

(Why is my heart beating fast?)

This sudden unexplainable nervousness is uncomfortable; making me glance at her constantly.

(Fuck...why am I worried about her?)
"Do you really want to cross there?"
*I nod*
"Okay~ if anything happens don't worry, I'll protect you~" *smiles warmly as if to calm me down*

With that smile of hers, it would lessen the pain I am sensing right now. But I still have doubts on the situation of her getting hurt. I told her as my breathing lessens.

"Please don't be reckless" *having a depressed state*
*She touched both of my cheeks then pulled it near her face* "If you're not okay with it, we can turn back"

The thought of looping back had crossed my mind.

*I quickly tried to tell her* "I think we should—"

As soon as I spoke, blood spilled her body. Someone or something in a hoodie stabbed her at the back. I never thought her blood would be red when her strength is abnormal. Even the strongest human could face death. Reaching her hand, she tries to reach mine. As we clasped our hand, the knife swings onto her wrist; unbinding our connection. This moment made me wish that this is all a dream; it wasn't. She fell on the ground while her murderer is standing, still holding the bloody knife with both of his hands. I screamed loudly as I made painfully wretched voice.

"MOTHERFUCKER WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!"

The form of my eyes signifies of hopelessness and resentment. Tears keep falling as I gasp for air. The thirst for blood engulfs me; still maintaining my focus onto it. Not thinking, I furiously dashed forward; tackled their body then snatched the knife.

*Looking below them*
"I'LL KILL YOU MOTHERFUCKER!"
"ROT IN HELL PIECE OF SHIT!"
"DIE!" "DIE!" "DIE!"

My anger gradually grows in every stab I gave. Not minding the consequences as revenge consumes my whole mind. What did she do to deserve this? I slowed down my stabbing after a never ending brutal of cutting and gore. My mind went calm, realizing how full of blood their upper body is. As I tremble from tiredness, I lift the hood; revealing the face of the murderer. It was the person before; the person who killed me accidentally; the person who humiliated me for who I am.

"He deserved it"

Without conscience of uttering those words, I felt a slight relief with the tragedy of losing the one I loved. I leisurely look at the pure bloodshed of a knife; little by little pointing it towards my throat.

*Gulps* "I'll see you again..."

I desperately lung the weapon at the center of my neck; my blood splattered. The time froze, as if I could sense all of the pain from my body to my mind. I could feel my sanity falling down greatly. My body falls backward, losing the ability to breath and losing a lot of blood; I died again.

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