Fated Or Doomed

Whose To Blame II

      "You all turn your backs. I was a child. Don't expect me to run back after that."

      She run her hands up. Forming a lighting ball. And I shook my head at her to not do it.  But Mery had a short lash on her temper.

      "You could of came back. You let it all fall. Selfish. Fucking selfish!"

      I run over to hold her back. The ball crashes right where I was. Making the room shake. She claws at me and I shove her. Hitting the table.

      "You were the reason I came back. The only reason I stayed." One tear slip out. I could only see and feel her hate.

      "And you are just doing too much. Fucking it up! Just stop it. No one asked for it. We're not your pack. We're nothing to you.." She goes to swing at me. I block and connect her side. She turn to yank my arm but I was too fast.  And she kept coming at me.

      "I'm not gonna let Luminis fall again." I interrupted her.

      "This isn't your home. You said it. I was raised here. My home, my family, my coven. I know how to handle it. You don't."

      And just like that. She pushed that dagger into my chest more. I clearly had been lost in a faith that I should of never had. I held onto it for far too long. Hell. Maybe it was gonna happen, before now and I never knew.

      Taking me off guard Mery attacks me. And we both fight to get each other off. She bite down on my arm making me hide a scream. I ram my head at hers. With each escape came another impact. Ramming each other throughout the kitchen. She lay a hand over my side. A red glow bloom as she burns my side. I groan in pain. Elbowing Mery in the throat.

      "This is mine! It was always mine! You didn't want us. So stop!" Taking a hit to the face.

      "For fuck sakes Mery. Mother used you. Step out her shadow!"

      Again Mery used her magic to hurt me. I block it. Using mine to knock her down.

      "Fuck you for it all. Go be an non witch else where." She came at me. Making me twist her leg and bring me down with her.

      The noise brought attention to the guest who came running in to pull us apart. Sarah and Mason held Mery back with arms behind her. Travis had me pulled away by my waist. Mery kicking and trying to escape their grips. My heart hurts as I see the hatred in her eyes at me. And I knew then that I had lost my sister.

      "The great and powerful hybrid can't commit to us. No shock! You never choice your own kind." She spit blood out her mouth.

      "I'm not just a witch. I commit to being Luna. My need isn't just this coven. Beside you spoke how unwanted I am here. My kind and people don't belong sadly!" Pain over pain.

      "I've been reading your thoughts this whole time! You hate it here still. Us, me, and everything. And it's becoming mutual sister." Her eyes were pure dark. My sister wasn't my sister anymore.

      "I don't understand Mery. After everything. Are you willing to give it all up. Because of fucking Sage? Because she did this. She started this. All of it."

      I tried my best with my mate's touch to calm down. But my breathing was too fast and my wound aches.

      "You don't get it. And why would you." Pulling her arms. "My mother loved me. I lost it all and had just her."

      "You had everyone. The moment your breathe the air you had everyone. A fucking golden child! The moment you were born Sage lied and tricked you. She was playing you the whole time."  I yelled back.

      "And you just left. Got a new family again and again." Her eyes watered but not a single tear fell.

      "I'm tired of apologizing for something I didn't do. I didn't harm our family or Luminis. I survive the torture slavery I had here." My breathing slowing down now.

      "Boo hoo. You never lost your best friend or sister. And still in the face of yourself she's still gone. Mother was right and I'm owing up to everything she has taught me. The coven isn't your.."

      "Home." I breathe.

      Mery finally stop fighting Sarah and Mason. Looking at me with defeat. They kept their hold just in case.

      "You didn't want Luminis then. So don't act like you do now." She said it as if I haven't been trying all this time. Maybe this was best. I can't keep trying if they don't see any efforts. Maybe her and Luminis isn't worth it. Maybe I need to stop holding on.

      "Fine then." It was like something snap in me. My emotions for Mery and Luminis was gone. "Forget it all. I'm done caring. This. Us. It's done. I'm over it." Pointing a finger.

      Travis lets me go. And right when I turn my heel, Mery yells back at me. Determine to push that dagger in more.

      "You're right Livy. You're not mother's daughter. She would of never ran away. She always stood by. She made sure to hide anything. She fought for her home. Her people! You couldn't do any of that. Not for us right? Your new home and family is more important."

      You hear the multiple growls towards Mery. Not a single one faze her. I turn back to meet my dear twin. And I have no clue who I was looking at.

      Feeling numb and hurt. Her face harden. I block her out my mind and I knew it pissed her off. I kept eye contact as I spoke. "Yes Meredith. And besides. I'm not the one running. Now am I."

      I said softly before leaving to my room. Mery calls my name. Spitting more words but I ignore her. All the hate she spiral out hits hard. My world was at lost now. Not only can I never forget her words. I can feel them. And a part of me sides with her. I was wrong for trying. I should of never came back. I was so fucking wrong. I should of known the hate and shame was never gone. It just grew. I know now, I could never change her mind.

      I don't belong here.

      As I walk away, you can hear her shout for release. Grunting at Gamma and Beta. And I believe they did once I was gone. That dagger had gone through my whole abdomen by now. I was numb and the blood pour out with each breath I took.

      With it being so late. I change my clothes. Send a small prayer to Moon Goddess as always. I got off my knees as I kneel at the window. I go straight to bed and closed my eyes. Wishing for the day to be over with. Travis came in trying to cuddle. Sensing all my emotions, I know he has a need to sooth me. But I shove him away. Not wanting to be touch. I turn over and fell asleep. Feeling shattered from the event.

      All I wanted right now was to leave and never return. I had nothing left here for me. Nothing. And no one. And I can't help but think how better things would of been if I'd stayed away.

      I wouldn't be hurt by them all again.