The secret diary of a broken soul

Sick

I don't look sick but everytime I try to eat something dies inside of me.
I know I look fine, I know that I smile but please don't believe to my lies.
I know that you don't know, but please try to understand.
I feel lost like I'm drowning in the ocean.
I don't look sick, but everywhere I go everyone looks happier than me.
I don't know what to do, right now I feel like a stranger to myself and I wish I were because I'd love myself more.
I don't look sick but everytime I try to smile my heart cracks.
I guess this is how I'll spend the rest of my years: wishing to be someone else.
Sometimes my hate is too much and sometimes the way I feel takes my breath away.
I am blind, please be my light.
I am heartless, please be my heart.
I am hopeless, please be my hope.

-Bella X.