Chapter 1 (Introductory Section)

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June 7, 2024Y/N'S POV:

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June 7, 2024
Y/N'S POV:

I'm wide awake.

Even though it is 3:45 a.m. and my alarm is set to go off in 15 minutes, I am wide awake. It is been six years since I last slept peacefully. Since then, I have been falling asleep while overthinking and waking up exhausted, both physically and mentally.

I sometimes feel like killing myself, but will that change anything?

No.

Nobody cares. Nobody ever did.

I am pleased and satisfied with myself. Why punish yourself for what other people do in this cruel world? So this is the only hope that has kept me from giving up on life.

I kept overthinking things that I knew were useless but also irresistible...until---

My phone buzzed, indicating that my alarm had gone off. I got out of bed and stood in front of the mirror to take a look at myself.

Nothing new, just messy and tangled hair tied in a low messy bun, visible eye bags, extremely dried out lips, etc.

As expected.

Is this how depression manifests? I do not even remember the last time I took a proper bath. So I decide to take a proper bath today and dress nicely, not for the world to see, but for myself to admire and be proud of.

I let out a long sigh, as it has been a long time since I have thought like this. Anyway, I have got to look good today.
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Afterall, its my birthday.

A/N Note

Apologies for the brief chapter. It was an introductory section of the story that revealed that y/n is a depressed girl who is struggling to find a reason to live amidst the world's negativity.

Word count: 289

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