Oh
Oh damnAm I really that far gone?
It's not that I
Don't want to be happy,
I have an eye
Of seeing the positivity.I just know,
How things people react
How things will go
All before the first action has passed.It's exhausting,
Really,
Knowing
Before they hurt your feelings.I can see
Through others facades,
And yet will still be
Disappointed in that regard.Not to be that bitch
But I believe I am too far gone.
That statement makes other itch
But for me, I just want to be one.Constantly fighting myself
Drawn and quartered
For not even an ounce
Of any kind of reward, like flowers.I try not to wallow
In all the pain that follows
To slowly being swallowed
By my stupid ass brain.But it's also hard
To find a reason
* A reason to laugh
* A reason to get up
* A reason to work
* A reason to live
Because everyone argues
If I had already accrued
It all.Oh
Oh damnAm I really that far gone?
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Post Teen Poetica
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