The complex feelings of life

I do not deserve your forgiveness

I wish you would hit me

To strike me across the face

Or slam my head into the wall

I wish I would find bruises and cuts littered across my skin

But you just sit there

Silently taking my outbursts

I know I hurt you

My lips throw hot acid

Burning your flesh

Then my eyes beg for your forgiveness

I should not be forgiven

I asked you once

"How can you love me?"

You sat there silently

Staring at the floor

Then finally

"Because you are my child"

Your eyes told me differently

They looked at me with hurt and anger

Your eyes held resentment

I know you hate me.