You say your scared to die.
Yet if I threw you into the middle of the ocean, you'd find yourself kicking and struggling to save your shallow breaths.
You'd attempt to catch air, to make sure you don't die.
So don't tell me you want to die.
You just want to kill something inside of you
"Your right.
I was never afraid of death, for I will be fueling life. I am whole until I am recycled. Then I will be in millions of other places. The water I drink, the animals people see, and the air that people breathe. I will be like the stars. I will be scattered across the cosmos."