I love affectionIt's like a soft fluff that you can hold
You can carry it forever and it will never go
But sometimes . . .
Affection hurts
I Don't know why
It's not suppose to hurt and it's not like you can get too much right?
But people say you can always get too less
So why does it hurt when I get more?
Shouldn't I be happy for at least getting affection in the first place?
Some people don't even get it at all
Kisses on my forehead
Kisses on my skin
Ew I hate it but I never hated it before
Hugs from the side
Hugs from the front or the back
Ew I hate it but I can't , I'm not supposed to
Because they all say "affection is great"
However
For me it's a struggle
One minute I want your love
And the next , I demand you go away
My parents tell me they love me and I smile back
But then I do something wrong and they say it . . . Why didn't they stab me in the back?
Possible influence from the internet causing me to have a sudden fear of rape
NO
You must not talk about that
Then there's acting as if you have no emotions and can not show affection
Sometimes I just stand there with a still face
They say I'm a "deer in headlights"
Maybe that's true
But for me it's more just "look at me. Look at me. I'm hurting and I'm trying to tell you"
So is affection good or bad?
Why does it hurt? Why does it lie?
Some people get it , some people don't
I should feel lucky , I should be happy , I should smile and feel grateful but I'm tired of faking these emotions
I'm tired of taking these Hugs and kisses like I WANT them . . .
I Don't
Please ask before you touch me
Before you hug me
Before you kiss me
Before you say you love me
I may seem strong on the outside but on the inside there's a battle
A couple demons with demands and fear
And they fear that you'll rape me
They fear that I'll get hurt from too much love
If that's even a thing , so if it is . . .
Please be cautious
I'm a fragile thing and I'm no longer afraid to admit it
VOUS LISEZ
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Poésie(made the cover myself) do I look like I fucking know what's going on!? But fr tho grab some popcorn this shit good