I look at the pictures of you on my wall
They look so real, but you... not at allFirst you were gone for hours, then days, then weeks. It dawned on me that you'd never appear anymore
But I wanted you back
I wanted you now
Your soft hugs, your loving voice. You knew everything and how to do it just right
But now that your gone it's seems I've forgotten who you are.
When I look at those pictures, you don't seem real anymore
I used to have dreams of you where you'd come back, almost as if it was magic but when I'd wake up I realized it was fake
I looked over at the other side of my bed and said, "I'm awake."
You weren't there and nor was your scent. Your beautiful hair, your adoring gaze
My mother was gone
That I had to face.
It pondered over me whether heaven was real or not. Whether it was a dark void full of nothing or white fluffy clouds with a golden gate
But these distractions didn't change what happened. Whether heaven was real or not had nothing to do with your fate
With the people who were killed with the hands of death
The people who were killed with their last breath
The people who were killed with the tears of children at their bedside
Or the people who were killed having no one to save them when they died
They all chanted away, bringing the casket in and burying it into the ground
But when I saw your body at the visitation, I did not even feel anything. No remorse, no sadness, no tears filled my face. I don't even think I touched your body and that makes me feel fake
They all chanted, screamed, hollered and cried, saying: "in loving memory of Denise"
And that's when I knew you had died.
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Poetry(made the cover myself) do I look like I fucking know what's going on!? But fr tho grab some popcorn this shit good