𝙈𝙀𝙍𝙄 𝘿𝙐𝙇𝙃𝘼𝙉

𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑴𝑬

she took a big sign and continued 

"i wont tell you" she replied, well what did u expected

i simply remained silent, not knowing what to say 

"and, even if i tell you, her goal persue is different and yours is different"

"but....my goal is her...." i replied making a sad face trying to convince her cause deep down even she wants us to have a chemistry, its obvious 

"if you want to get her....just marry her" she stated causally scrolling throught her phone 

"WOW....like its soooo easy...and that she will totallyy agree to marry me"  saying sarcastically  i  sat down beside her...just hoping she'll do....atleast something 

"tell me what should i do? be rich? be handsome? whattt"  i asked in a curious tone.....and i swear my sould was itching to know 

"everything?? cause even i dont know what she likes" she answered competely uninterested 

i stared at her...making sure shes not joking.....tho i am willing todo all of it...if i just get her...

"fine then...i'll do it" i said and went to leave the room

"university of chambridge, england....to study law and you ARE NOT going there"  she stated forming a small smile on her face  warning me 

suddenly she got a call....from my future wife and as like me i immediately ran towards her and telling her put the call on speaker by literally moving my hands

""hello? nashwa??"" 

"hello there!""  

i heard her beautiful voice on call....i could her it for hours....i said to myself as i was smiling and blushing like an obssesed man 

""dont you have a flight today? i suppose""  

"yes..i am already at the airport...1 hour late so i thought to call you"  she said with a tireing tone and oh god.....her voice...is making my heart beat like crazy and my cheeks turning red like a tomato....a big, big smile smile creeped on my face so i bit my lip to make that creepy smile go off 

""ohh....well good thing that you called cause after going there you would have been busy""

""is your brother beside you?"" she asked in a low voice......how did she know i was hearing her!!??

we both immediately paused 

""haan"" (yes..) my sister replied 

""usse kehna bhul jaao hume....agar apne aap ko bachana hai toh"" (tell him to forget my existence...if he wants to save himself)  there was stictness in her tone 

""bachana hai ka kya matlab?"" (what do you mean by saving himself from you) 

""matlab ki agar mai ne uska dil toda toh wo kabhi juda nahi paayega"" (means if i break his heart he would not be able to fix it)

""magar--"" my sister sturred trying to explain 

""ab aur sawaal nahi...farah....hum sab chor ke jaa rahe hai"" (no more questiones...farah...i am gonna leave it all behind) 

her words were enough to break me, and it was now or never...i needed to say the words i coud'nt 

""dil toh aapne bohot pehle tor diya tha...""(you've broken my heart long ago)  i replied with a longing tone....and anyone could sence my pathetic desperation 

""aur aap ke bina qarrar hi nahi mile ga toh bachane ka kya faida?"" (and if theres no peace without you....then whats the point of saving me?) she remained quiet...but i am sure she heard me...its all that matters for now

""meri jaan...tod do ya banaa do....hum aapke hai"" (my love...break me or make me...i am all yours) 

those were my last words to her...as i will not be seeing my beloved for years...i will be dead 

i went outside...leaving them alone to chat...its not like i mattered infact i was the one who ruined her mood afterall 

i went to my room and aimlessy laid on my bed thinking how she left my heart completed broken and confused.....why do you hate me so much my love? i questioned as my head began to hurt...

bichad te waqt ussne kaha tha ke na sawaal karna na jawwab milega 

mujhe bhul jaana qarrar milega 

hum iss maqaam par the ke na sawaal kya na jawaab mila 

na bhul sake na qaraar mila 

no matter how much you hate me....i am still yours, and i am not gonna leave you at any cost...this is not the end...i repeated all this in my head to not loose hope 

want someone rich? i will do it 

want someone kind? i will do it 

want someone handsome? i will do it 

just......just...please, love me