"Hello Payton my name is Dr.Hartman and it's a pleasure to be able to help you." She put out her hand for me to shake. I hesitantly shook it.
"Thank you for taking your time to help me." I said
She smiled "please sit down." She said gesturing to the tan leather couch.
I slowly sat down. Her office was really nice. It had a window for the wall and you could see the city beautifully. I stared at the window gazing at the view. It reminds me of the cliff that Kade took me too.
"Tell me what your thinking." Dr. Hartman ask
I looked back her breaking my gaze of the city.
"I-I was just zoning out." I told her
"But in the process of zoning out you were thinking of something." She said
I didn't say anything just played with my fingers nervously.
"You know these sessions can be about anything. Not just your nightmares and depression. Anything that you want to talk about I'm here to listen." Dr. Hartman said noticing my silence
"I'm just confuse." I finally say
"Confuse about what?" She presses
"Everything." I look at her
She doesn't say anything. I guess she wants me to continue.
I take a deep breath "when I wake up from a nightmare besides all the heavy breathing and sweating and screaming when I wake up, I wake up confuse. Confuse on how I could possibly dream about something like that. How I could possibly wake up from something like that. My mind just never works the same anymore."
She nodded her head crossing right leg over her left.
"Our my mind can play tricks on us. It can make us think one thing and another. Your nightmares look like they affect you in away you don't know how to deal with and in a way that is affecting you with your family and friends." Dr. Hartman explained
I nodded my head taking in what she had to say.
"But you need to focus on the things that take you away from that. If you stop focusing on the nightmares they won't bother you as much. It's going to take sometime I understand but it's worth a try." She continued
I didn't say anything again
"I feel like something else is troubling you." Dr. Hartman pointed out
"Don't you think it might just be my depression settling in?" I said not really wanting to talk anymore
"Maybe." She smiled pausing before asking "can I ask you a question?"
"Go ahead."
"Do you have trouble accepting who you are?"
Everyday
"Yes." I said shyly
Who doesn't?
"Why?" She pressures on
"I just don't like who I am." I shrugged my shoulders
She smiled again. What was she getting at?
"Why?"
What is up with the whys?
I decided to question her "why do you keep asking me that?"
"Well you are a very pretty girl, I expect you have a lot of friends, a loving family, and get everything you want. Why hate it?"
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The Difference Between You and I
Teen Fiction"If you can't handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best." Payton Liss has always lived in between the lines of what society wanted her to be. She is the prettiest girl in school, and everyone wants to be her friend. Payton comes fro...
