The Binding Light Of Love

Death?

Kiara's pov

It was night, the time of dinner even in the situation of sorrow and worry all I could think was of, that did he had his food?
I looked at the huge royal plate with the food, I forced my hand forwarded and tore a bit and then took it closer to my mouth but then I wasn't able to eat it, it was not the war, it was him.
I suddenly remembered every night where we sath together in my bed eating,
I could see us eating from the corner of the table in my room, i could hear us giggling.
It was a deja vu the most beautiful one,
I was craving him, his love, I wanted him, all of him,
It was just few hours and I'm here in tears thinking about him.
It hurted me more than anything.

Only if it was his absence but it wasn't just his absence, it was a fear of losing him,

If death would come to us, I would gladly die before him, i will surely be selfish to do so, but I can't bear the pain of loosing him.

Even in my worst nightmare he is there with me, I can not even imagine my life without him, it didn't mattered who he was, a commander of whatever he was my
My agastya.
The only man i ever wanted, I would happily die to be his widow, even if we had nothing but whenever he'd die, he'll take my soul with him

If I'm the body, he is the soul,
If I'm the temple, he is the deity I pray too.

In a moment of sudness i saw both of us sitting on the bed and him hugging me and telling me how important it was for me to have appetite, I was not listening one from him, but then he suddenly tickled me and I was laughing as loud as I could, and I saw admiration in his eyes, he always admired me
There was something between both of us, we knew.
And never felt the need to say it, we shared a pure bond filled of love.
And then how nakshatra came and he jumped of the window and came back to me complaining he got his feet hurt from jumping and how I was giggling in it, and then he made me eat the food and we talked about our lives, how much he wanted to teach me, sword fighting so he could do it with me,
I didn't realised but by this time I was crying, I looked outside to the moon.
And whispered why is it me?
Why did he had to leave me?
Why?
It all felt to heavy and he wasn't here to make it light it was sucking honestly.
I would wait for him, but his health is my concern.
I looked at the untouched plate of food and then sighed and continued to stare moon outside.

Sach kahe agastya,
Apko bhot satate hai hum, hume pata hai,
Pr apka bura kabhi nhi chahte hai hum,
Bhot Prem hai apse hume,
Ek baar ye sb sahi ho jae,
Apse keh hi denge
Ki kaise tadapte hai hum apke Bina,
Apki ek jhalak paane ko bhi kitna tarse hai hum,
Humara bs chle toh duniya ki kisi bhi diwar ko langh ke aa jae,
Aapki baahon Mai rehne ke liye,
Duniya ki saari Khushiyon ko tyaag de,
Pr kya kre apse itna dur rhna padta hai,
Ye duriyan achi nahi lagti hai hume,
Apko bhi nahi lagti hongi nah?
Yaad nahi aa rhi hai kya hmari?
Hume toh bhot yaad aa rhi hai apki,
Jaldi aaega, apki Kiara apka intezar kr rhi hai,
Itna samay mat Lena ki hum apne Prem ka izhar krna hi bhul jae apse,
Agastya Prem hai hume apse, aaenge nah aap jldi?
(If Id have to tell the truth ,
I know  i trouble you a lot agastya but believe me I don't want bad for you,
I love you a lot,
Let everything get like it was,
Then I'll tell you how much I suffered without you,
How much I suffered to have just a glance of you,
I could have crossed walls,
Just to be with you in your arms,
I'd leave all the happiness of the world just to be with you,
But what shall I do?, why am I supposed to stay away from you?,
I am missing you so much,
If it's possible then please come as soon as possible,
Don't take much time to return,
That much time that I'll forget to confess my love to you,
Agastya I love you, please.come sooner love)