Tough Love

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

He wanted to talk, I knew he did, and I wanted to ask him so much, but I think he was the one who needed to be the one who brought it up first. His hand ran over my stomach, fingers spreading out over my stomach and resting when he felt small kicks. I loved feeling those movements.

"Does it make me a bad person if I feel relief that you're the only woman I've gotten pregnant?" he finally spoke up, his words a quiet whisper. "I love Jenna, and I never want to change how she's come into my life, but in a way, I feel relieved... because I have lived with regret for her entire existence over my stupid mistake that night."

"That's understandably, you were young, and I guess there's so much to still process. What did your dad say?" I asked, his face was just a shadow in the darkness.

He laughed, mockingly. "He said we got played and to call my lawyer. Mum couldn't stop crying." I felt sad because it didn't just affect Ash, it was going to hurt his parents too. They helped raise her, she was their only granddaughter.

"It's awful." I reached up, holding closer. "I'm so sorry Ash, I can't imagine what you're going through or how you must feel. I just don't even know what to sat at times either."

His finger brushed a strand of hair from my face, stroking gently until my eyes closed. "You're doing everything I need. Just being here is all I need."

"Mm, I'm always here for you." I promised.

"I guess there is really only one thing I can do" he spoke after a couple minutes of silence.

"What's that?" I wondered.

"We could just do nothing, she's my daughter, blood or not."

I smiled, that was a good plan to have, but that won't work. "She's going to see a lawyer; she is ready to fight. She'll have been told about the paternity by now anyway." As if she wouldn't be sitting and waiting to be told about it.

"That's what I was afraid of, it was good to dream about it." he sighed. "I'm about to lose her, I just know it. She was determined to go and live with her days ago, she's been meeting up with her secretly at school and on weekends when she is meant to go and stay with friends."

Christ, this girl sounded like the devil when you really thought about it. "Do you think you could work out a custody agreement?" I put it out there, just to see what he would think about that.

"I haven't even considered that, but knowing how crazy Kelly is, she won't want that."

He needed a distraction. I bit down against my lip and moved up. He assumed I was going to the bathroom, but instead I straddled his waist and grinned down at him as I took both his hands and pushed them into the pillow and hovered my breasts above his face. His mouth latched to my nipple, sucking hard and I let out a cry, grinding down against his growing erection and teased some more.

Soon a hand was snaked around my waist, and he took charge, something I loved about him. I was pinned down on the bed, his body sliding down between my thighs as he pushed them wide open and I expect him to slowly tease me, instead he devours me. His mouth latches on and he eats as if he is the most starved man alive. His fingers inside of me, curling as the suction on my clit increases.

My back arches and hands fling up as I reach for the pillow and dig my fingers in. Jesus. I see stars and begin to buck. His moans against me as he growls, licking and sucking faster. I grip the pillow harder, my hips moving faster as the pleasure in the pit of my lower belly increases. "Yess." I moaned; my eyes were seeing stars.

I came hard, a hand flung down and gripped the back of Ash's head and took a handful of his hair as he shook his face, drawing out my orgasm.

Trying to push him away, the pleasure too much to handle. He didn't let up. His hands gripped a hold of mine and interlocked out fingers. My thighs trembling with a death grip on his head as I came once again.

"Ash." I pleaded. "Fuck I need..." I couldn't get the words out.

"I love your pussy." He grinned wiping his chin before he came in for a hard kiss, tasting myself on his tongue as he thrusted inside me and kept a fast pace until he came hard and fast.

Catching my breath, I was covered in slick sweat. "That wasn't how this was meant to go." I pointed out.

"It wasn't?" he raised a brow, walking back into the bedroom with a towel to clean up the mess between my legs.

I grinned, sleepily. "I was meant to worship you, you were meant to lay there and let me distract you."

"Ahh is that so?" he smiled. "Baby, if there's one thing you should know, it's you will always be worshipped in the bedroom. You'll always be fucked like the queen you are. As much as I love to watch you ride, I love to watch you come even more."

Oh, my heart.