Programming

Slipping in the rain

"C-connor?" She ran a hand through my hair, rubbing the back of my head comfortingly.

I tried to ignore her question and move to kiss her again but she pulled away softly, looking deeply into my eyes with a look so full of love and worry that I began to break down

"I... I'm not sure what... h-happend." I said, my voice catching in my throat from the tears. "I was in my... in my garden... when an-" I could barely force the words out past the sobbing. "an android I...I-" I tried to stop the tears. They flowed down my cheeks as I retold the dream, still fresh in my head, the image of his face staring at me with such betrayal. Of course he would attack me. I cried more as I remembered it. I wanted to turn away, never think about it again but my head wouldn't let me live in peace. My sobbing got worse as I thought about that.

"I got you love. I'm here. You're right here." She said softly, rubbing my arm and scratching my back to ground me.

"He's... he's dead... because of me. I.. I k-killed him when I could have saved him... w-when I promised I would save him." She continued to rub my arm, softer now as she processed. "he was there. T-telling me I lied and suddenly I was... I was markus' friend. And saw myself, stealing my memories and I-I.. I fucking killed myself." The tears broke free past the wall I've been failing to put up and I broke down fully now. Emotion crashing onto me like a train chugging down the tracks and my voice shook from the effort as I cried into her shoulder.

She wrapped her arms around me tightly and rested her chin on my head, going quiet and just softly rubbing my shoulder. Maybe to let herself think, maybe to give me time to cope or both, I couldn't know, but I loved the feeling of being held by her.

"It wasn't you..." She said after a while, "It was your programming... Cyberlife used you to do things you didn't want to do." She leaned back to look me in the eyes. Wiping the tears off my cheeks as she spoke. "I know you, I've watched you become... you and I know, you've only ever done what you thought was right."

I sighed through my nose, the thoughts of blaming myself dying down as I stared into her eyes. Her words helped but the look in her eyes helped more. Sincerity, love, worry, a million things and not one trace that she was lying or had any intentions of leaving me after what she's learned.

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(A/n Trigger warning over)
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I kissed her deeply, focusing on the feeling of her lips and the texture of her skin to push the feelings away. She kissed me back softly now, clearly still worried but love flowing from her lips anyway, gripping at my side like I might dissappear if she lets go. I just wanted to hold her, to feel her heartbeat against my chest and hear her breathing. She moved to kiss my cheeks where the tears just were and I took the opportunity to dip my head into her neck and kiss her sweet spot.

I relished in the way her heart raced and she sucked in a breath when I bit her neck lightly. Her hand cam up into my hair and gripped softly as I came back up to kiss her again. I slipped my hand under her shirt and gripped her soft breast, making her gasp which I saw as the opportunity to slide my tounge into her mouth. The moan she let out vibrated across her chest and I rolled her hard nipple in my fingers, loving the way her hips rolled uncontrollably against me in response.

"Mmh- fffuck." The word slipped past my lips as I didn't realize how hard I was until I felt myself rub against her through her thin leggings and groaned deeply in my chest, my hands moving to grip her hips and kissing her moans away.

I pulled her on top of me while laying on my back, making her yelp softly. My right hand buried itself into her hair and I pulled her into a crushing kiss, my other hand shooting to her hip and using it to push her against me, making her moan as my cock rubbed her clit through our pajamas. She finally picked up on my desperation and kissed her way down my cheek to leave small hickeys under my jaw. Her hands roamed my bare chest and I started pulling her shirt up, desperate to have her skin against mine, she lifted her arms immediately and let me pull the shirt over her head, tossing the side somewhere.

I pulled her right back into a kiss and groaned at the contact of her body against me, immediately deciding it wasn't enough I dipped my hands under the hem of her leggings and she lifted her hips to allow me to slide them down. She started pulling them the rest of the way down feverantly, moving to kiss down my neck and chest as she slid off the bed. I sat up to follow her as she continued her trail of kisses, stopping at my waist and standing up fully to pull her leggings the rest of the way off. I slipped her sweats I was wearing off in one motion and grabbed her hand to pull her back onto me, she got on her knees above me and I gently pushed her hips onto mine to feel us together, kissing her with need and saved the way she whimpered in my ear as my bare cock slides against her soaking wet folds into my important memory folder.

"Mmph oh hell, Connor." She whimpered into my lips.

"Fuck, I need you so bad." The words slipped out of my mouth as my desperation to feel her everywhere took over my system.

I slid myself into her entrance, making us both groan in unison as she wasn't fully ready and was so tight, Her wetness being the only thing allowing me inside. Her nails clawed at my chest as I pulled almost all the way out and roughly shoved back in. The sensation spread throught my entire body and settled into that pleasure, sliding my arms under her back and holding her close to me.

I buried my face in her neck and revelled at her moans when I started picking up the pace, opening her slowly. She buried her hands in my hair, gripping tightly and I loved the close contact, like this is as close as we could possibly get. I could feel her lungs desperately taking in air and let her breath, moving to kiss the pulse point in her neck to feel her heart beating hard from arousal.

I put my hands on her waist to control her hips and she gave in easily, allowing me to guide her up and down my cock roughly. Now that I have her mapped out I was able to hit her g-spot with expert precision and she gasped in surprise as I began giving all my attention to that bundle of nerves. She wrapped her arms around my neck and I took the opportunity to leave kisses and nips on her shoulders. My hands gripped at her ass, making her open up more and I felt that familiar buildup in the bottom of my stomach as I felt her walls clench around me.

"Oh. my. fuck-," She moaned into my ear as I slid a hand under her ass to rub small circles her clit.

I unintentionally left a large purplish hickey where her neck meets her shoulder, pleasure clouding my brain and making it hard to focus, the feeling of her thighs shaking and her walls closing around me was too much for my brain to handle and my pace began to stutter. Becoming messy and desperate as I chased the euphoric escape of this tension building in my system.

"Yesss-ah, fuck baby t-thats so fucking good." I groaned out as she rode me, her nails digging into my chest.

She pulled me into a loving kiss as she came, her walls tighting against me so much that I buried myself as deep as possible inside her clenching walls, my orgasm being pulled out by her memorizing pussy. I deepend the kiss by puting my tounge in her mouth and pouring all the love I felt in this moment into her from my lips and cock.

She collapsed against me as her release washed away and exaughstion took over. I pulled out of her, my cum spilling out of her as I did and turned to my slide, letting her fall to rest into my shoulder and shs kissed my chest lazily, desperately trying to stay awake. I pulled the blanket above us and relaxed into the warm comfort of post sex cuddles. I softly brushed the hair out of her face and kissed her forhead.

"Goodnight gorgeous." I said softly, making her hum in response and nuzzle my chest, falling asleep, her hand on my chest.

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(A/n look, that ending is called 'Connor was traumatized'. Of course our boy would have bad dreams also, Boo! Surprise smut)