Programming

"Because! Connor." She threw her hands up as she yelled. She sighed and looked deeply into my eyes. "Because... its not... real. I-I could never truly know if any of it is actually real."

Thats not what I expected. I stayed silent hoping she would continue.

"How do I know you actually are feeling these things you say or if you're just programmed to say you are. How do I know that your smile-" she reached up and poked my cheek forcefully, "-is there because you want to smile or because you're trying to illicit a reaction from me." She became more frustrated as she talked. Like she forgot she felt this way and is getting angry a over again. "How could I believe anything you say or do? I mean hell Connor, sometimes I wonder if you were programmed to make me lov-" she cut herself off as she turned towards me, seeming as if she has begun to wilt, the frustration leaving her body and she stared at me searching for something in my reaction.

For once I had no idea what to say. A flurly of emotions washed over me as I proceed what she said. Honestly, I worry about some of those things myself sometimes, wondering if my emotions are programmed, if it's all some fucked up test. I tried desperately to find something to say- anything, but the words wouldn't come. I watched as the tears welled up in her eyes helplessly and she grunted, turing on her heels and walking away quickly, crossing her arms. Panic shot through my body as I watched her begin to leave.

"Wait! Please! I-" I started to follow her and reach for her arm again to stop her when she turned angrily towards me, tearing flowing on her cheeks.

"No! D-Dont come after me." She turned away and practically ran to her car.

I immediately stopped and my arms came to my sides as the order processed. The frustration in my system was almost too much to bare. She was going to say love. She was going to say love and shes walking away and I am completely helpless to stop her.

Shes leaving me. I thought

Its not fair.

If she loves me she doesn't want me to stay away.

I don't want to stay away.

I want to follow her.

I want her...

I want her.

I began to follow her when my body snapped back quickly and large red error messages glitched into existence all around me.

Don't go after her.

Over and over, covering my veiw of her walking away and reminding me of my place.

I want her.

My body stayed in place but I stepped forward. Like it was my soul that stepped forward instead. I touched the large red error with a white glowing hand and it burned, like fresh hot coffee spilling all over you.

I could slightly see her through the cracks of the text. Covered in rain, head hung low as she walks away. I push my hand forward. Pressing as hard as I could and the firewall barely gave away under the pressure. I began to push with the other hand as well, using my feet to force me forward and it gave away some more. I teared my arms downwards and ripped away a couple shreds. I began to clawed at the rip I had made, every tear and yank sending Shockwaves of pain shooting through me and tear after tear the only thing I could think is: I want her.

I took a step back and with a deep breath, ran straight forward into the crumbling firewall with my eyes closed, It finally giving away.

The sound of the thunder snapped my eyes open. I could feel the rain running over my skin as I began to run towards her, I could feel the rain on the ground splash beneath my feet and as I looked up my entire body was filled with blissful relief to see her turning towards me, making me run even faster to catch up to her now.

She sniffled and wiped her nose on her coat. Her face filled with a mix of sadness and confusion.

"Connor? How did you-" I cut her off by grabbing her face and pulling her a desperate kiss.

She froze as she was caught off guard and I didn't dare open my eyes to see her face. I moved my hand to cup the back of her head and slid the other around her waist to pull her closer. She slowly began to melt into the kiss and fireworks exploded in my chest as she slowly kissed me back. Her hand moved to my neck and she placed the other flat on my chest. I deepend the kiss and she gasped which I saw as the opportunity to lick her lips, asking for entrance which she obliged quickly. My lips and tongue has millions of sensors, designed to analyze samples in real time and as my tongue explored her mouth I was suddenly grateful for my advanced sensations. Reminents of sweet coffee and mint spread over my tongue and I kissed desperately, trying to map every part of her amazing mouth and pour every emotion she has given me into the kiss.

I was reminded by humans need to breath when she pulled away from me, gasping for breath and leaned her forhead against mine as she caught her breath, softly closing her eyes

"I'm not falling in love with you because I'm programmed to," I begin, causing her to look up at me. "I love you in spite of it. Every emotion I've felt is because of you, how I feel for you, the things I've done...goes against everything I was made for." I took her breathlessness as an excuse to let it all out. Finally knowing what to say, "I can't think when I'm around you. Me, a prototype android designed to take in hundreds of prieces of data and calculate it all in seconds, loses the ability to find words when I look at you." I smiled and rubbed my thumb against her check as I continued, feeling tears building in my eyes. "I- I know I can't ask you to trust me, but please," I pulled her face up to look at me, "dont leave me... You're the reason I'm becoming human." We were both crying now.

She slid her hands around my neck and pulled me in for a hug, I had to remind myself how strong I was to not hug her too hard.

"I don't want to leave you." She whispered in my ear.

I smiled into her hair and felt her begin to shiver from the rain

"Lets get you somewhere warm." I pulled away from her and put my hand around her shoulder and raising my body heat to warm her up on the way to her car. She laughed breathlessly.

"I didn't know you could do that," she said, making me chuckle, grateful for the shift in tone.

"It's how we can stay functioning in the cold."

"Wish I could." She said sighing as we reached her car.

She took out her keys and unlocked the door with shaky hands before turning to me with a smile. "Wanna watch a movie?" She said softly smiling, the tears drying on her cheeks and gesturing to her car.

I happily nodded.

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(A/n Ready? I've never written smut before so we'll see how it goes)