Heartlines of Time [Celestia Series #1]

XII - 12

Weeks passed and I'm in the middle of processing my documents for our internship, I plan to apply in my dad's company but I realize na baka may special treatment kasi all my dad's employee knows about me so in the end nag apply ako sa company ng Tito ko, father of Ezra. Mabilis lang naman akong na tanggap it's because they also need some help for the upcoming event, the more people much better daw kasi. Tito recognizes me also kaya he pull some strings for me, while Enzo is busy for his general surgery internship good for one year sa hospital nila after that he still have to attend residency for five to seven years in a neurosurgery program.

We haven't seen each other for two weeks, palagi siyang wala sa condo and madalang na rin kaming nag tetext kaya sobrang kalaban namin ang oras. Sometimes I would ask myself if kaya ko ba ng ganito? I hate this kind of relationship, but I try and try to understand him, ayoko naman maging clingy girlfriend.

After I process my documents, dumeritso ako sa Company ni dad kasi may photoshoot pa ako.

"That's good Aquila, give me a wide smile" the photographer said as he capture every moves I made.

"Aquila, adjust your position! Look at the camera! That's great, one more time!"

Pagkatapos ng photoshoot, I change my clothes and go home. This time hindi ako umuwi sa condo ko but to my home in Makati. My mother greeted me, nag usap lang kami tungkol sa internship ko and about sa photoshoot. My parents still don't know about me and Enzo, wala rin naman plano si Enzo magpakilala sa magulang ko at wala rin siyang plano ipakilala ako sa parents niya since we haven't talk about that. Nasaktan tuloy ako sa sarili kong iniisip, tsk tsk.

Kinabukasan, I receive a text from Enzo.

From: My Constant
Good morning baby, are you free later? Let's grab lunch together. I miss you
I love you 😘

Ako na siguro ang pinaka marupok pagdating sa pag ibig, kasi habang ginagawa ko ang mga files sa office ng secretary ni Tito ay tahimik akong ngumingiti.

"Are you ok Ms. Aquila? You're blushing!" Tito's secretary, Cassy said. I hide my face at sinabing ok lang.

Cassy ask me to help her in arranging the files alphabetically, he also ask me to type some documents and edit some powerpoint presentation para sa business proposal or I think for investment. I gladly accept her request kasi through this mas ma dedeepen yung knowledge ko about business. Hindi ko namalayan na malapit na pala mag 12pm, I text Enzo if nasa restaurant na siya pero walang reply.

When Ms. Cassy said we can take our lunch, halos tumatakbo na ako palabas ng kompanya at mabilis na sumakay sa sasakyan. I was about to go when I recieve a call from Enzo, I answered it immediately.

"Hi baby, I'm on my way! How about you?" Bungad ko sa kanya.

"Yeah, please check on that and---- hi baby, I can't go! I'm sorry. --- No need, just go. The patient is waiting---- baby can you eat on your own? I'm sorry, I have to go. I love you" He said and hung up the phone.

"Ok Aquila, you need to understand! Mas may kailangan ng atensyon niya kaysa sayo! We are talking about life here!" Pakikipag usap ko sa sarili ko.

Nag order nalang ako online for my brunch. Sobrang napipikon na ako sa relasyon na to and anytime pwede na akong sumabog, I'm still trying. Ayoko siyang iwan kasi mahal ko siya pero kung ganito palagi, paano naman ako? There are times that I also need him! Kailangan ko rin nang atensyon at pagmamahal niya! I'm silently crying in my car for how many minutes. Pagkatapos Kong ilabas lahat ng sakit ay lumabas na ulit ako at pumasok sa building.

It's already 11pm and here I am watching the stars in my terrace while drinking a cup of tea. Actually, I'm waiting for Enzo's call or text pero hindi man lang siya nag abala kaya I call Ezra instead.

"Huy Gago! Gabing gabi na ha! Need advice kung paano e suot ang condom??" bungad sa akin ni Ezra, kung ako Yung pinaka burara ito namang babaeng to ang pinaka walang filter sa bibig. Among all the four, si Ezra ang masasabi kong pinaka bestfriend ko talaga, aside sa siya yung una kong naging close ay siya rin yung may pinakamagandang advice na alam mong sobrang tagos sa puso.

"No, I just can't sleep!" I said

"Why? Is it about Enzo? Gusto mo resbakan ko na?" She said, natawa ako sa sinabi niya.

"Hindi ko lang maisip na ganito pala yun? Na aabot kami sa puntong hindi na nag kikita o kahit sa call man lang wala pa ring time"

"Aquila, remember he's an aspiring doctor! Hindi madali ang trabaho niya. Alam ko namang nag aalala ka but I know for sure Enzo loves you so much!"

"You don't understand, gusto ko rin yung lambing niya! Yung attention niya! Kahit weekends nga hindi na kami nagkikita, naguguluhan na ako sa sitwasyon namin. 1 and half months pa palang kami, next week 2 months na pero ganito na kahirap! Ayoko ng ganito Ezra!" I tried to conceal my tears pero tumulo parin sa huli. Natahimik si Ezra ng ilang minuto bago magsalita ulit.

"Edi makipag hiwalay kana habang maaga pa! Kasi kung yan ang nararamdaman mo, it means you don't trust Enzo that much! It means hindi panatag ang loob mo habang wala siya sa tabi mo! That's toxic Aquila, don't think for your own good! That's selfish! Isipin mo rin ang sitwasyon ni Enzo! Did you ask him? Did you talk to him? Hindi ba wala? Kung ayaw mo sa nararamdaman mo ngayon, makipaghiwalay ka! Break up with him" Ezra said frankly. She has a point.

"I'll talk to him" I said as I wipe my tears.

"That's a good choice Aquila, alamin mo rin yung Point of View niya bago ka mag desisyon. Anyways! Want to hang out tomorrow?? Let's get Drunk!" She said shouting over the phone na parang batang excited sa field trip. I just said yes to her and hang up the phone.

After talking to Ezra, parang gumaan ng kaunti yung pakiramdam ko. I decided to talk to Enzo as soon as possible kung busy siya ako na mismo ang pupunta sa kanya sa hospital kung saan siya nag intern.