Chapter 18

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Kim's pov

"What exactly did I say when I was drunk?"

Many things , to be honest , it shocked me hearing these words from Macau , I sip my coffee

"Are you gonna tell me?"

"Better discussed it at home"

He let out a sigh , he was frustrated

Why never me!? Why it's always Porchay!?

These words are gonna hunt me for a while , Macau was perfect just as he was , but I don't get why he's jealous over Porchay , I'm just confused and clueless about it , after spending some time outside , we went home

"Kim , tell me please , I don't know what the hell I said and I'm scared I might have said something wrong"

Fear was in his eyes

"You just make me confused , you said something about being jealous of Porchay , you also said you hated me and that on the day you got drunk was the day you saw me with Porchay"

He was silent , was there something I didn't know? Searching in his eyes , he was hiding something , I rested my hand on his shoulder and he was startled

"Macau , is there something I should know?"

"No , nothing"

Secrets , mysterious , I narrowed my eyes , I grabbed his arm

"Stop running from your problems , tell me what's wrong"

He mumbled something but I heard it , he pushed my hands off and tried to go away , running away again , I furrowed my eyebrows , he went upstairs but missed a step , I stepped forward and grabbed him

"There's something wrong and I want to know , tell me , I will listen to you"

"I.."

I wanted to hear him , I wanted to listen to him , he wasn't comfortable , his back as turned to me , I wrapped my hands around his waist

"Tell me"

He was silent once again , It made me more frustrated

"Him and I used to go to the same school"

He finally decided to talk

"We were friends"

Were?

"We were great friends but he was always the one who gets everything , he always get away with everything , we were troublemaker , we used to ditched classes , I got detention for three hours while he got only for one hour , it was unfair , he gets away with everything just because he was smarter"

He let out a breath

"Teachers were unfair to both of us but I just get blame for everything , I will not say I'm not jealous but sometimes I feel hurt by it , I got transferred into another class for some reasons , remember I told you about that one guy who I used to have a crush on , Porchay got with him before I could , it kinda hurt to see him always gets his ways"

Some teachers treats students differently

"He got a nice and warm family while I have nothing until Pete came into our life , I liked you and he also got you , It's not that I hate him , sometimes I wish I could hate him but I can't bring myself to do so"

Something wet fell on my hand , soft

"He's nice , charming , generous and friendly while I am just me"

I narrowed my eyes

"You have every right to be angry , I don't blame you"

I said while he was sobbing

"But have you known about his life? Listen I'm not taking anyone's side , some teachers are sometimes the problems , did he know you got bullied by that person?"

He shaked his head

"Then , he must have not know about it , he doesn't have any parents , he only have a brother but now he have a family"

I turned him around , seeing his face , he had tears streaming down his cheeks , I wipe his tears

"It's not ones choice of be jealous of someone , you want to be like him , you want the thing he has"

He tried to turn his face away , I assumed it was because be was crying

"And it's not embarrassing to cry infront of someone"

I tilted his chin up , he wept bitter tears while looking at me

"Cheer up angel , it's not your fault , you seem to not like yourself"

He sniffed , sadness , I felt sad for him , thinking negativity

"And I'm yours now , yes maybe me and him will talk sometimes but I guarantee you that we're only friends , nothing more , can't even say we're friends , when we see each other , we just talk a little and that's all"

I gave him a smile as reassurance , he wipes his tears and nods

"Dont cry now , you look ugly crying"

"What? You think you look good crying?"

"I do after all I'm handsome"

"In your dreams"

I laughed

"There now , this is the Macau I know"

He smiled , this kid sure seems to be very sensitive , he has trauma from being a child and that's so sad to think of it

"I'm surprised"

He said

"About what?"

"You're so cold towards others , even towards your brother's but you're not like that with me"

"You're just different"

"How come?"

He smiled

"Because I love you"

I looked at him , he was smiling , I like it when he smile , his smile was precious , I kissed him , I tilted his chin up

"Also , you're nice too even charming , you're insecure about yourself"

He was silent , I was right

"You're someone caring and nice , you're just shy and is a little insecure about yourself , you don't have that confidence in you"

He was gripping my shirt

"My love"

He looked up

"I love everything about you , I've been observing you for months , I'm yours now and you're mine , you need to have a bit confidence in yourself and I know you can have it"

He nodded , god why was he like this? I might lose my shit soon if he continue to act like this , I let out a sigh and pushed his head to my chest , I hugged him , this guy just makes me feel things and it's sad to think at this age , he's insecure about himself , after his father died , I don't remember seeing him , I used to watch his moves in case he might do something to our family

"Macau , your hands are warm"

He was silent , the temperature of his body was always warm , I noticed it whenever I hold him or hold his hand

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