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the blissful yet incomplete dream

Hey , so I got another dream, I mean not now...it was months ago, in August... I wrote it in my diary so I am just copying it here, alright so the scenario is that , I was in the marriage hall stading in front of Gojo and we were getting married, yes a happy dream is what I would also have imagined about but let's talk about that later at the end....

So-)''

At around 1Am or something I saw this daydream, the dream of me marrying Gojo , the marriage hall , the white gown ,his black suit , a bishop beside us. You see I have being simping over him for months now so here it goes,
    
        I was marrying him, but we had to go through ritual of cutting our palms , I was pretty disturbed as to why do we need to do this, we love each other . Love? Each other? Us??

I had the power to shut senses and time pausing , so I shut the guest's ears by snaping my fingers and eyes by closing my first and asked him -: do you love me? He stayed silent for a long time . ' I think I got my answer ' one more question do you truly wish to marry me? He then again stayed silent , I then decided to call of the wedding and he startled saying 'no!' , I stared at him and after a while I said 'alright then' and I opened all of the guest's senses.

And the bishop said let's begin the holy ritual and I announced , Gojo will slash my palm since I can't do it for him, he will slash my other palm too, he stared at me with his ocean blue eyes widened and shocked and a little bit of sadness and there was I , staring at him with my blank eyes full of sad expression behind it,

Maybe he saw through it and shouted 'NO!!' and I said quietly 'I won't let you suffer in this atleast , afterall it's my wish to marry you'.

Actually this ritual is just an indication that has married with his heart , once palm sliced just leaves a scar 'deep one' at that so all in all one can only marry 2 times with heart you can say, those of 'true love story' goes with this ritual...that's why maybe he was just worried that if after marriage I find someone I wouldn't be able to get married if I find someone , I wouldn't be able to get together with him or I should have a chance to get true love.

I said lightly, ' I don't think there will be place for someone else after you dear ' his eyes widened yet again and one of my palm was already slashed by him and I grabbed his hand with my slashed arm blood gushing through my palm, and with both of our hand a smile plastered on my face
WE slashed my palm together...more like a way to reminder that it was me who got myself into this maze,

All the guests and bishop were shocked to see this but happy too, thinking 'afterall she can't see him in pain , an idle wife' ,

And that's absolutely true, obviously I love him beyond what he knows and why would I want him to have a scar he doesn't even mean to? Bear the pain he doesn't want to? Afterall it's meaningless to him ,right?

And it would seem that I am just making a joke of my own love for him.

Well, that's what had happened but you know? I wasn't happy at all with this dream...I mean you see marrying with the one we have been dying for, but still, it being the saddest moment of our life?... This one just disturbed me more or less,
I know most of people maybe thinking that I can't be having this long dream, yeah only that me asking him the question...'do you want to marry me' portion was my dream....and his long silence was my nightmare that woke me up actually.

But what was this dream for? And why all of a sudden? I mean I love and simp all over him but I never imagined marrying him and getting sad in that thought...ah! I truly want to have a happy marriage but this dream all of a sudden, does not look good after all right?

<Pov- yes I would love to marry him, just bring him to me, ah I know it's not right but...you see...I am an idiot in love>

Message to him-:
Hey idiot I am still waiting for you here , come to me!!