[MTL, BL] Horror Game Live BUG is Actually Me (Book 2)

Chapter 223 - Like You

In the past, if someone said that Fu Yan had inferiority complex, he himself would not believe it.

But now, after thinking about it for himself, Fu Yan realized that his situation was indeed one of low self-esteem.

When Fan Xiangyi said that he believed in himself too much, he actually meant that he believed too firmly in "what he saw in himself." He is too aware of his own level and has too locked himself in the "box" of this level, so he firmly does not believe that "luck" with inconsistent levels will favor him and come to him. After all, Fu Yan actually didn't believe in "luck" the most. In other words, he does not believe that he will get "good luck from heaven". Therefore, when something happened that seemed to be beyond his own level, he regarded it as "something wrong seems to have happened in this world."

But he ignored another key point - how can feelings be something that needs to be verified rationally?

Fu Yan had previously suspected that Fan Xiangyi was attracted to him because the image of the consul who was extremely intelligent and capable still covered him, causing Fan Xiangyi to think highly of him. But if you recall carefully, Fan Xiangyi never instructed the Archon on how to exercise, nor did he care about the Archon's trivial matters. And His Majesty was very aware of Fu Yan's "weakness", so he protected him, and at the same time, he also tried his best to let him "play on his own" and "play freely" within a limited range.

Fan Xiangyi treated the consul and Fu Yan very differently.

He can lead thousands of troops to fight and kill enemies, or he can teach Fu Yan how to breathe during fighting; he can destroy the entire ghost world with a swing of his sword, or he can sit next to Fu Yan and peel shrimps calmly; he controls the billowing black The smoke swallowed up all the other ghosts, or he could keep a kid who wanted to kill him at his side just because of Fu Yan's few words; he could also just keep Fu Yan by his side every time because he was startled. For the first time, he opened the door and walked out of the study instead of suddenly appearing in front of Fu Yan.

Fu Yan thought that he had even noticed his "inferiority".

This kind of "inferiority" is projected on the outside, which means distrust of Brahma Xiangyi, not believing that he will fall in love with an ordinary person and be willing to pay for it. Fan Xiangyi used his actions and words to refute this "distrust". But he never pointed out Fu Yan's real problem harshly or cruelly. He just gently reminded Fu Yan - don't believe in yourself too much.

Fu Yan thought, okay, now I will put aside the rational comparison of strength and think about other things.

He began to think about his feelings for Fan Xiangyi.

Fu Yan has never had a romantic partner before. The main reason is that his feelings for people are always weak and he is not close enough. He may have some friends, but in fact he doesn't have much in-depth contact with them. If he wants to establish an intimate relationship with others, it will probably be difficult for him in the second part after they get to know each other. In his subconscious and dream world, isn't this how he reacts to the approach of "Zongshu"? We can chat for a few words, but the closer ones are definitely gone.

However, Fan Xiangyi is a special case.

He forced his way into Fu Yan's life, and Fu Yan had to accept it at first. And later - as I said before - Fu Yan got used to his existence and walked side by side with him. Even when Fan Xiangyi made something closer than a "good friend", Fu Yan silently accepted it. Fu Yan had previously assumed that this kind of acceptance was "forced" and was too lazy to dwell on it anymore. Looking back now, Fu Yan asked himself, was he actually a little happy at that time?

Looking at this matter without escaping or deceiving oneself, and accepting Brahman's closeness to the One, is it anger, displeasure or unwillingness?

Moreover, how could Fu Yan not know about the scandal between Fan Xiangyi and himself that was spreading a lot outside? If he really didn't want to, why would he go out with Fan Xiangyi and leave a little devil like Fan Xiangyi to serve as his servant, all of which would deepen the scandal?

To put it more bluntly, if Fu Yan really didn't want to accept Fan Xiangyi, why would he silently leave one for Fan Xiangyi when others brought him snacks? Doesn't Fu Yan know that the dignified Lord of the Ghost Realm is in need of this kind of food?

Thinking of this, Fu Yan suddenly felt that he was really cowardly and foolish.

The giant in love games, the dwarf in real love.

It's obvious that the shadow of the other person is everywhere in your life. Even if you lose your memory, you are still aware of the other person's existence. Doesn't this mean something?

Fu Yan suddenly sneered, laughing at his own timidity. The actual answer is actually there, but I don't want to admit it, and Fan Xiangyi, who has always been strong, doesn't really press forward.

Fu Yan thought, okay, I know that I feel inferior and afraid, so why not think about the worst outcome.

What's the worst? It was Fan Xiangyi who no longer liked him, abandoned him, separated from him, and even swung a knife at him. So after all is said and done, isn't it still death? Although he will become a ghost after death, even if Fan Xiangyi is the lord of the ghost realm and is invincible, Fu Yan still has so many memories of his previous life. If he can escape once, is he afraid that he will not be able to escape a second time?

Moreover, Fu Yan felt that if it didn't work out, he could just ask Fan Xiangyi to make a contract in advance, right?

If not, just fall in love, what's the big deal. After experiencing so many bad things, is falling in love still a bad thing? talk! Talk about nothing! Don't be a coward!

Fu Yan figured it out and suddenly felt refreshed and even felt some great pride.

He stood up and said with a relaxed expression: "I figured it out."

Gray, who had been quiet all this time, said again: "What have you figured out?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Fu Yan suddenly smiled, "You avoid it and let Fan Xiangyi Come on. He must be watching, don't think I can't guess..."

Before he finished speaking, the tall figure had already appeared in front of him.

Fan Xiangyi approached, one step away from Fu Yan, staring at Fu Yan with his eyes. He may have guessed what was going to happen next. There was some light in his eyes, and he still maintained his calmness on his face. He said in a deep voice: "He has been blocked. What are you looking for me for?"

Fu Yan looked at him. , suddenly felt that his heartbeat was getting faster. As if to cover up this uncontrollable excitement, he stretched out his hand and pulled Fan Xiangyi's face: "This time it's true."

Fan Xiangyi held the hand: "Who else dares to pretend to be me?"

"I can't tell, maybe I can dare in my dreams." Fu Yan looked at the top of his head, "How about you take a chance on me and show your favor? How about a 1314?"

Fan Xiangyi stared at him: "You and I start a fight. This kind of joke?"

Fu Yan said: "Can't it?" Fan

Xiang said: "You know what this means." Fu Yan:

"What does it mean?"

Fan Xiang said: "..."

Fu Yan saw that his face turned cold, and finally He gave up the idea of ​​teasing and said slowly: "I called you here because I want to tell you an answer. I'm afraid that after I get through this, I won't dare to say it again."

Fan Xiangyi was taken aback by his tone. Then he became a little nervous: "Then tell me." "

Before that, I want to ask you a question first." Fu Yan said, "Did you watch the whole dream of mine?"

"...Yes."

"Then what did you hear? Did Harvey say that?" Fu Yan said slowly, "'Only someone who does something for you when necessary is called a good person; someone who does something for you even if it's not necessary is called a good boyfriend.'" "...

I heard it. "Fan Xiangyi felt that his heartbeat was speeding up, getting heavier, and out of control. His mind could not help but begin to imagine the answer, the answer that he had been looking forward to for a long time, but he could only suppress his impulse, stared at Fu Yan without blinking, and asked, "So what?" "

'Then So what?" Fu Yan lowered his eyes and smiled, then suddenly said, "This world is a dream constructed based on my memory, right?"

Fan Xiangyi didn't know why he suddenly went off topic again. I felt a little impatient, but I could only reply: "...Yes."

"So, some of the plots that happened here should also reflect some of my inner thoughts, right?" Fu Yan added, "For example, I had a big fight with my boss and called him a fool." Fan Xiang

grabbed Fu Yan's hand Holding up his hand, he reluctantly replied patiently: "You can say that, but not entirely. Your dream will be interfered by the constructor, such as some irrelevant characters thrown in..."

Fu Yan asked: "You mean Zongshu? "

Yes."

"No wonder..." Fu Yan thought for a while, "I wonder why this person is so weird."

Fan Xiang saw that the topic was getting more and more deviant, and couldn't help but remind him: "Is this the focus now?"

"Indeed, no." Fu Yan suddenly raised his chin and looked at Fan Xiang, "But haven't you understood my hint?"

Fan Xiang was stunned: "What hint?"

His intuition and wisdom have always been It's not bad, but in the current scene, it would be good if Fan Xiang could maintain a calm appearance. How can he have so much time to analyze this and that. Now that Fu Yan actually played riddles at a critical moment, Fan Xiangyi's mind was really at a loss for a while.

Fu Yan saw that he really didn't respond, so he had to remind him: "I mean, maybe what Harvey said... is my subconscious thought."

After saying the second half of the sentence, Fu Yan's eyes turned away involuntarily. He originally thought that if he responded tactfully, he might be calmer and calmer, and less frizzy like a young boy. Unexpectedly, at the critical moment, Fan Xiangyi's IQ was not enough, and Fu Yan could only remind him step by step.

There is no way, you can't rush back halfway and then shrink back! That's even worse!

Fan Xiangyi looked at Fu Yan's increasingly red ears, and suddenly figured out the logic behind it.

"A person who does things for you only when necessary is called a good person; a person who does things for you even when it is not necessary is called a good boyfriend." This sentence was said in the scene of peeling shrimps.

Fu Yan's inner consciousness caused the man to say these words.

This sentence is Fu Yan's idea -

and the person who peeled the shrimps for Fu Yan, the person who did this unnecessary thing for Fu Yan, is...!

"You mean...!" Fan Xiang subconsciously held Fu Yan's shoulders and stared at him closely, "You mean, I am your...boyfriend?!" "

...the part you skipped Isn't it too much?" Fu Yan tensed up his face and pretended to be calm, but his red ears had betrayed him, "I mean, since I have this logic in my subconscious, then we... can try it."

Fan Xiangyi only saw Fu Yan's figure in his eyes. The excitement in his heart had exploded like a volcano, but a very thin thread was still holding him tight, urging him to ask Fu Yan: "Try? What to try?"

"Don't you ask knowingly!" Fu Yan felt like he was being raped by a beast Pinned under his claws, he couldn't move. He subconsciously turned his face away and didn't dare to look at Fan Xiangyi, "You know exactly what I'm talking about!"

"I..." Fan Xiangyi's mind was also confused, he opened his mouth and popped out In one sentence, "I only want to ask you one thing."

"What?"

"I like you." Fan Xiangyi was extremely straightforward and could be called rampant, "What about you?"

Fu Yan was silent for two seconds before opening his lips. : "I seem to..."

"Like?" Fan Xiangyi came closer and asked in a hoarse voice, "Look at me and say it seriously!" "

...I like it!" Fu Yan ignored it and turned around to look back. Looking at him, "I like you, that's okay... um!"

Fan Xiangyi kissed him as he wished.