[MTL, BL] Horror Game Live BUG is Actually Me (Book 2)

Chapter 222 - Live for yourself

"... Brahma Xiangyi."

When Fu Yan read out this name, the sealed memories came rushing in like a tide, no, it should be said like a tsunami!

The memories he had after entering the horror game world, the memories he inherited after recovering his soul, came flooding back, making Fu Yan's head spin. He couldn't help but curse and fell down to wait for this chaotic and suffocating feeling to pass.

This state was familiar to him and disgusted with it. After each soul is recovered, the impact of power and memory will give him a headache, a low fever, and everyone will be in a bad mood. Unexpectedly, as soon as the world came in this time, it would be completely blocked for him. Now that the lockdown was lifted, the familiar strong tinnitus also came with it. Fu Yan felt as if he was floating and his feet could not touch the ground. He couldn't help but feel agitated, but he could only lie down and wait for him to calm down.

Fortunately, this time it only took less than ten minutes, and this fatal state subsided quietly.

Fu Yan lay on the sofa and opened his eyes. What he saw was the ceiling of his home - a home full of high technology.

"What's going on?" Fu Yan sat up and looked around, "Isn't it over yet?"

The moment Fu Yan regained his memory, he felt that the pretense of this game world had been broken, and the game should be over. Unexpectedly, when he opened his eyes, he was still where he was. Fu Yan tried to summon the game's mission panel, but there was no response.

To be honest, if Fu Yan hadn't recovered too many memories, he would have doubted that the memory of going to the horror game world was just a dream.

Fu Yan was thinking about whether there was anyone else who needed to be killed - isn't it like this in many works, where a key person in the illusion must be killed in order to break the illusion - Intelligent Gray's voice came: "Indeed, not yet." It's over."

Fu Yan guessed that this "Gray" was no longer the original Gray, but he still asked calmly: "What else do you want to do?" "

One more question."

"What?"

"Do you really want to leave?"

"What do you mean?"

"If you stay here, you can stay away from danger, away from fear, and away from the fearful life like before." Gray's voice is indeed very good. When he slowly said these words, he was very seductive, "Stay." Here, you can enjoy a convenient, fulfilling—and more importantly, eternally peaceful—life."

Fu Yan asked: "When?"

Gray replied: "When your story in this world should end."

Fu Yan asked He looked at his hands: "In this world, life, old age, sickness and death?"

"It can be understood that way."

"Then you are quite powerful." Fu Yan said, "Every player enters your world, and you have to build a world that allows them to A world where you live your whole life? To a certain extent, aren't you the god of these players' personal worlds?"

Fu Yan paused and then said: "If the players are the so-called cultivators of immortality and Taoism, do you still have to spend hundreds of years with them? Years or even longer of life to provide resources for him to continue living? How could you ghost bosses do such a losing business?"

Gray replied: "But that's not true."

"Huh?"

"That's just a dream. ." Gray replied, "When the dream is over, the dreamer is also over."

Fu Yan understood for a while and figured it out: "In other words, this whole world is just a dream. I am having a dream, Birth, old age, illness and death in dreams. When I die in a dream, I myself die at the same time. And everything consumed in this dream is not real, because it is all constructed with illusions in the dream, right?" "

You You've always been so smart." Gray replied, "But what's the difference between a world like this and truly returning to the world you originally lived in?"

Fu Yan thought about it for a while, and actually agreed with him: "...You can say it Yes, there is indeed no difference."

Although the player is only dreaming, when he dies in the dream, he himself also dies at the same time. In other words, it can be considered that the player died normally in the world in the dream. For many players who are afraid and disgusted by that weird world full of fear, staying in the dreamland is basically the same as returning to the original world they dream of.

Gray added: "Some people can't break through this illusion in their lifetime; some people are willing to stay even if they can."

Fu Yan said: "But every player is alone in this dream, isn't it? They stay Here, you will never see people in reality again. Even if they are the siblings who were dragged into that fucked world together, even if they use team props to come to you, even if there are others in their respective worlds, The figure of a person... that's not real either."

"Indeed, but so what?" Gray replied, "This world feels so real to you. As long as you don't think about these troubles, this place is real. "

Fu Yan didn't argue with him. Fu Yan had already guessed the way he harvested players' lives: "Once the players don't realize that this world is just an illusion, once the players choose to stay, their lives have been sacrificed to you, right? ?"

"Yes."

"If it takes a thousand years for them to die in their dreams..."

"It's only a moment."

Fu Yan understood that dreams can be very long, but to the BOSS in this world, they are just one moment. moment. Dream time and real time are inherently disproportionate.

In this way, the BOSS of this world can easily harvest the lives of many players. But they all volunteered, so it was a win-win situation.

"...But I don't need it." Fu Yan raked his hair, looked around, and said, "I don't need to fool myself with such self-deception. Everything I really face, good or bad, is what I should deal with. ."

Gray said: "You never run away."

Fu Yan sneered: "No need for good words. In this case, can you let me go?"

Gray said: "There is one more question."

"You just said that' There's another question, and now it's this rhetoric again." Fu Yan raised his eyebrows, "Should I sign a contract with you? Just say it."

Gray said: "This question is about your previous... your previous life , asking me to ask before I return my soul to you."

"..." Fu Yan didn't expect such a move, and he felt like he was having a conversation with his previous life, "Just tell me."

Gray said. : "Are you able to live for yourself now?"

"...It's such a profound question."

Fu Yan sighed. It wasn't that he didn't understand the question, on the contrary, he felt that he immediately understood the true intention of asking this question in his previous life.

The person who worked hard for the country all his life, and even worked for other people's countries for a long time after his death, looked forward to being able to live for himself after reincarnation.

At the same time, he probably didn't want his future generations to collect his souls back in a hurry due to some involuntary reason, and have to take on some responsibilities that were not originally his.

——Otherwise, why would he have left his post and resigned after so many arrangements, right?

He couldn't predict what the future would be like at the time, and could only hope that he would choose a completely different path in the future. He reserved a question for Fu Yan, not really to get the answer, but to express some of his expectations and to remind him of his reincarnation - please live for yourself.

In the past, Fan Xiangyi didn't quite understand why the consul suddenly left without saying goodbye, but Fu Yan could empathize with it. Fu Yan even felt that the reason he was so unwilling to force himself for others might be because he had too strong a belief in reincarnation in his previous life, which led to his current subconscious choice.

Now, faced with the past life problem conveyed by the BOSS, Fu Yan did not need to hesitate too much and replied: "Of course, I live for myself." "Are

you sure?" Gray said, "You just said , someone changed you."

"Everyone will be affected as long as they live among the crowd." Fu Yan actually knew who he was talking about, but his expression did not change, "Some people are particularly influential, and others will be affected. It's normal to be affected."

"But this kind of influence may not be something you are willing to accept, is it?" Gray said, "Maybe you should think carefully about whether you really made these changes voluntarily. You said you were doing it for Live by yourself, but why did you want to find the soul that was finally separated in the first place?... You should make sure that you are not repeating the mistakes of the previous life."

Fu Yan was silent for two seconds: "... He gave the last soul to Are you, because you are a debater?"

Gray: "..."

"But you reminded me a little bit." Fu Yan lowered his eyes, "I should think carefully about what is going on between him and me."

Fu Yan spoke a little bit The reference was unclear, but he didn't need the BOSS dressed as Gray to understand what he was talking about. Fu Yan promised Fan Xiangyi to think carefully about the relationship between the two. He had been somewhat evasive before, but now it was a good opportunity to think carefully.

In other words, when Fan Xiangyi became the key to unlocking Fu Yan's sealed memory, Fu Yan felt that he should no longer escape.

He was thinking about Fan Xiangyi he saw.

At the beginning, he was violent and arrogant, so arrogant that it made people angry but unable to resist. However, Fu Yan's attitude towards him at that time was not entirely one of fear. On the one hand, it might be because of the residual influence of the soul, and on the other hand, it might also be because Fu Yan already had a bit of a "dead calculation" mentality. In short, Fan Xiangyi did not leave a good impression on Fu Yan in the early stage.

Later, after Fan Xiangyi confirmed that Fu Yan was the reincarnation, his attitude changed a lot, but he was still arbitrary. Fu Yan couldn't defeat him, so he had to make some jokes and tease him occasionally to vent his dissatisfaction. Later, after Fu Yan repeatedly expressed that he was not the consul in his previous life, Fan Xiangyi finally began to face this problem and looked at Fu Yan and his previous life separately.

This high-ranking Majesty is willing to get to know and interact with Fu Yan again. Sometimes Fu Yan could even completely ignore the disparity in ability and status between the two and treat him as a friend, or even a close friend. Fu Yan never wanted to get close to Fan Xiangyi with his bad temper. But after getting along for a long time, Fu Yan may have gotten used to it, or he may have a new perspective. In short, in Fu Yan's eyes, a super beast-level figure like Fan Xiangyi would occasionally find him cute.

Later, Fan Xiangyi confessed to him.

To be honest, Fu Yan still thinks this is quite ridiculous. He is very self-aware, his intelligence is not top-notch, his sports skills are even worse, and his overall level is average, if not bad. He couldn't figure out which string of Fan Xiangyi was wrong, and he suddenly fell in love with himself. If it weren't for Fu Yan's talent and Fan Xiangyi's unparalleled ability, Fu Yan himself would have doubted when he had poisoned His Majesty.

In this self-consciously absurd situation, Fu Yan almost never considered the option of "agreeing to be with Fan Xiangyi" at first.

Today, Fu Yan carefully analyzed his firm refusal, avoidance, and even sharp rebuttals that he couldn't even think of for a moment, and suddenly realized something.

——It's because of the inferiority and pessimism hidden in my heart that I don't want to touch the line of "try thinking".