The Publicist

Downward Spiral 2

Jazmine POV -

"August!" I called from the kitchen.

"What?"

"Would you bring yo ass." I rolled my eyes. I hated when he answered me but didn't physically come.

I heard him get up and walk down the hall toward the kitchen. He sat on a stool at the counter.

I had pictures laid out of our possible wedding venues.

"Where do you want to have it at?"

He looked at the different pictures and rubbed his head like it hurt.

"Uh..."

"I'm trying to give you a voice in this. Otherwise imma do what I want and I don't want your opinion later."

"Chunky Cheese."

"First off what the hell is a Chunky Cheese. It's Chuckie And second off, why are you playing games?" I laughed at his foolishness.

"Babe this is your wedding. Whatever you want, get. I'll follow your lead."

"What's my budget?"

"Who said I was paying?" He started chewing on his finger nails.

"You are so annoying." I got the pictures up and neatly put them into my wedding binder.

"I came in here thinking my bum prepared me breakfast. Like a real wife."

"Aww I'm sorry baby how unthought full of me." I got down the cereal and took out the milk.

"Jazz I'm not playing. Cook me some real food."

"No my cooking sucks remember."

"It does but I'm hungry. Do your womanly duty Na'." He whined.

"Boy if you don't... What do you want?"

"Waffles. Shrimp. Grits."

I eyed him and gave in to his demand.

"And baby you didn't even wish me a happy Father's Day." He walked over to me.

"Can we get the baby out first?"

"I'll put another one in if you want. Get us some twins. Maybe even triplets." He kept kissing and sucking all on my neck. Caressing my breast.

"Aug gooooo." I tried to act like I didn't want him all on me, but I did.

I felt safe in his arms and I was so excited to be having his first child. Our first child.

We had sex so much it was bound to happen and it did. 😍

"I'm going to give you and Josiah the world you already know."

"I know." I blushed. "I know."

I looked in the bathroom mirror. We were staying in a beautiful estate in Accra, Ghana and I couldn't enjoy any of the trip so far because thoughts of August filled my mind.

Thoughts about how we were supposed to get married and How I was supposed to have his first child.

All that was crushed because of his unfaithfulness. I looked at my body in the mirror seeing as I was only in my bra and panties.

I don't care what August or Trey said. If I was really all that beautiful he wouldn't have cheated.

When I came back, I was going to show him just how beautiful I could be.

I looked at my toothbrush on the sink. I got it. Got on my knees in front of the toilet and stuck the end as far back as I could until contents came out and into the toilet.

"So this what you been doing?" Trey stood behind me.

I quickly got up and wiped my mouth, flushing the toilet.

I didn't hear him come in and I immediately felt self conscious being practically naked.

I need to get a robe I tied to get pass him. "No you sit on the tub. I'll get the robe." He said with force.

I sat and covered myself with the shower curtain.

He came back in a threw my robe at me. I put it on. I got up to brush my teeth.

"I asked myself why for the past two weeks after every time we ate, you went to the bathroom. First I thought it was a stomach virus. Then I said naw, she seems fine throughout the day. Then for the past three days, I heard you puking. Without fail every time we ate.
I said I was going to catch you this time and I did. I'm not taking your ass back in a body bag. So if that's what you want to do, then you fired."

He walked out into my bedroom.

"No Trey." I quickly rinsed my mouth out.

He didn't turn around but he stopped walking.

"I feel so lost. So unwanted." I started to cry. "I thought I was good. And I tried to be strong. But can't. He's probably with Princess right now and totally forgot I existed. I tried so hard to get thoughts of him out my mind, but I can't. I love him. And I'm not supposed to, but I do. And I want him back. But he never wanted me. And I just figured if I lost the weight maybe he would. Maybe he'd see my new figure and regret what he did to me." I sat on the edge of my bed.

Trey turned toward me leaning against the wall with his arms folded.

"I can tell you as a man, I've had some of the most beautiful women. Perfect bodies. It still wasn't enough to keep my attention. The deficiency was in me, not them. I already told you, it's not you."

"I just can't believe that. I kept replaying the videos where he dances with her. And I see the way he looks at her. The way he touches her body. He never did that with me. Never." I cried into the covers.

I felt kisses all up my thighs and I felt Trey open my robe.

I sat up quickly.

"What are you doing?" I looked at Trey a little but nervous.

He looked at me with lust in his eyes. Like he wanted me.

"He never looked at you like that?" Trey asked as he bit his lip, looking at my open robe.

I closed my robe. Trey removed my hands.

"Get off Trey."

He laughed and got up.

"I'm demonstrating a point Jazmine. It's called entertainment. It's his job. If you look at the videos I make... I'm looking at the women like I want them, because it's my job. It's his job to sell sex."

"But he actually had sex with her Trey. That ruins your little theory."

"He doesn't want her. Trust me. And I can guarantee you right now he's going through it. 9 times out of ten worse than you. Men,
Despite what we show, can't handle breakups especially with someone we love. Either way, this little throwing up you doing got to stop. Otherwise I'm sending you home."

I sighed.

"And by the way you are sexy and I'm not just saying that. Get washed up so we can go."

He got ready to leave out.

"Trey."

"Huh?"'he turned around.

"What's sexy about me?"

"You really wanna take it there?" He gave a nervous laugh scratching behind his ear.

"I just need to know."

"I'll put it this way, I'm trying to be respectful of August. So imma keep what I think to myself. Or you might not come back single."

I chuckled.

"Fair enough."

He smirked then left out.