Kind-koji

Chapter 23:Mental scars

"If everyone doesn't get it, it isn't funny" she said with her fist balled as I shrugged

"Maybe you're the only one dumb enough to not get it, I've even made Horikita laugh" I said blankly as she looks at me in disbelief

"Bull-shit!" She says as I shook my head

"Nope, it's real-shit." I say in the same tone she did as she looked me in the eyes and then proceeded to laugh

"Ah.... I suppose you can make people laugh... even with that sad sense of humour" she said with a cheeky smile as I shrugged

"Perhaps I don't need to crack jokes to make people smile, I am just naturally this good" I fake bragged as snickered

"Well..... it's something alright" she said as I nodded

"Well I can understand you not wanting to talk about it but I do reckon you take this one advice..... stop cling to others and relying on them for protection" I told her as she looked at me with a confused look

"What....." she simply said as I continued

"You make your worth very much centred about those around you, I reckon you stand up on your own for once and make your own path.... Then maybe you'll be able to walk one where you won't have any regrets.... But those are just my words. It's upto you to apply them or not" I explain to her as she stared at me dumbfounded

"What do you mean..... I know I am a leech but.... I can't do what you said...." She trailed off slowly as I shook my head

"Remember Karuizawa Kei. You mustn't need to be alone to stand alone, take help to get on your own to feet and walk the road ahead on your own. You'll fall down. Hard. But there will be people to pick you back up, so don't give up or give into despair. I will see you later then, goodbye" I said as I exited the place where I only hear a faint voice from Karuizawa

"Thank you....." I heard a soft voice as I left

I made my way to the library once again, not knowing what to do as I spot Hiyori reading alone once again, her expression quite blank, I made my way toward her as I asked

"Hiyori? What's up?" I asked while tilting my head as she looked at me in surprise

"K-Kiyotaka!? when did you get here?" she asked as I shrugged

"I just got here, everything ok?" I asked her as she nodded and just said

"Nothing..... I was just thinking to say the least" she said with a small smile that seemed to be for reassuring me instead of her

I felt worried, why did she need the feel to reassure me?

"Is everything truly ok? I am here for you" I told her as she shook her head and denied any such possibility

Well.... if she didn't wish to tell me then that is completely fine, I can't force her to tell me afterall

"Alright then, I am here for you so feel free" I said as I picked up a random book and began reading, very slowly at that.

Me and Hiyori sat in silence for a few minutes as she asked

"Kiyotaka, what would you feel if you were to date someone?" she asked me as I raised an eyebrow at her question

I had thought about it a little before, I mainly wish to discover what it felt to be normal and feeling love was obviously a part of it, you could say I was chasing the emotion even

"I would feel happy if someone was interested in me and wanted to give me a shot" I said my mind's thoughts as she looked at me in confusion before she asked me