Love Without Reason

AngerII

Y/N'S ROOM

Taehyung came to hospital again in the evening when Seokjin called a meeting with jeons including jungkook.

"Hi y/na" He sat besides her weakly

"You look so beautiful" he smiled sadly at her

"You always look so good. What's the reason behind this beauty huh? " He chuckled a little

" Are you dreaming about me? i wish you are. " A sad smile was glued to his face.

"You know y/n...I love you so much.. I love you in ways i didn't even knew it was possible to love someone.. "

"When i first saw you.. I don't know what happened back then.. But i can say I'm madly in love. And no one can stop me from loving you. not even you. "

"Even if you push me away. you'll always find me by your side. I'll alwaye be there."

"I never regretted loving you. I won't.. never ever. Cuz loving you was not a mistake. You are the best part of my life. The brightest star of my universe. " His eyes glistened

"Maybe.. Maybe confessing my love was not a right thing to do.. Maybe some people just don't get to be with the ones they love. Maybe i am one of them" He sadly chuckled

"Maybe i was not right for you.. That's why you didn't fell for me... maybe i was too late. Maybe i was a coward.. Maybe.. I Am A Coward.. " He started to sob softly

"It's just... Maybe.. I'm still grieving.. Maybe... i don't know.. just leave it.. " He panicked at his own thoughts

" i just want to see you happy y/n. Please wake up.. I can't see you like this"

"I can bare the space. but not this.. please my heart is sinking seeing you like this" He placed his hands on his mouth to prevent the voice of his sobs

"Just look at me.. Just one time.. show me your smile. tell me you are okay.. What happened to you? who did this to you? tell me? Ask me to beat that bastard's ass. Ask me to do things for you. Or at least let out your frustration on me. All your anger sadness or whatever. Cry as much as you want. But please don't be silent like this " tears rolling down from his eyes were unstoppable

It was impossible to control emotions for him anymore. He wanted to cry his lungs out. He wanted to shout out loudly. He wanted to shatter everything in ways he was shattered. He just wanted a word from her to completely ruin Jeon Jungkook from head to toe and birth to death.

His anger was unmatchable. People only saw his soft side always. But this volcano was hidden somewhere in his heart until now. It was about to burst out any time. he was out of his own control. He was out of thoughts. He wasn't able to think straight. His world was completely destroyed on seeing y/n like this.

He stood up from there and left the room controlling his emotions. He somehow made his way to his car and he drove as fast as he could. He had no control over his nerves. His eyes were swollen. but still tears didn't stopped to fall mercilessly.

He stopped his car at an abandoned place. He went inside the building and that was the end of his control. He fell down on his knees. He shouted as loud as he could. He grabbed his hairs tightly and cried his heart out. Y/n's laughs started to echo in his ears

He covered his ears like an afraid kid. He was still crying loudly. Even his tears dried up but his heart was still bleeding . After crying for hours he hugged his knees and sat in the corner of the hallway of the abandoned building. Tears were slow but steady. He was looking like a terrified kid.

He badly wanted someone to soothe him. He wanted someone to hug him and say that it's gonna be okay. It was non other than y/n. He was craving her embrace badly. He was dying for it. Fear of losing her was killing him. In this trauma he actually started to accuse himself of her this condition. He considered himself at fault.