I can't handle this.

Fearless.

“I’m just…” – I thought a little about I was about to say, I couldn’t tell him about my nightmare yet, I couldn’t tell him I was afraid of him, not after all. – “I’m just tired.” – It sounded more like a question than an answer.

“Whatever.” – He said leaving the room.

I stood there thinking about everything, about the other night, about my dream and about the vampire blood, how could that be even possible? My world was turning weirder and dangerous every day, I wasn’t safe anymore. Then the door burst open, it was Finn with dark circles around his eyes, he was palest than ever.

“What the hell you were thinking about? Leaving Leeds without telling me?” – He asked.

“I left you a note.”

“Oh wow Danielle, thank you so much that is so amazing from you.” – He blamed me. – “Come on Danielle, how old are you? Because you’re acting like a child.” – Child, just like Jack called me at the nightmare. – “I was worried about you, I’m sorry for talking you that way but I was scared of losing you forever.”

“You won’t” – I answered him. – “Why did you take so long?” – four days after.

“I had to go to London, for a solution.”

“Of what?” – I asked him.

“Look Danielle, I met with Harry because we needed his blood to heal you.” – Not Harry, everyone but Harry. – “He’s a vampire now, also Caspar and Zoella, actually I know this sounds pretty weird to be honest” – He said with a nervous smile, this is not happening, this is not happening, I promised myself but I couldn’t lie convincingly to myself.

“I want to see him.” – I asked him in softer voice, he didn’t answer me, he stared at me for a while and then he sighed. – “I want to see him.” – I said louder.

“You can’t” – Finn whispered.

“Why not?” – I asked confused.

“Right now you’re not safe with anybody, but us, and when I say ‘us’ I mean Jack and me” – He told me in the most gently way he could, one of the things I admired about Finn is the way he treat girls, like if he were from another age. I nodded.

So I wouldn't be able to see Harry, but I wanted to.

“Do you know anything about Jacob?” – I asked him in a rudely way.

“Jacob? Who’s Jacob?” – Finn asked me.

“The one who introduced the knife to my leg… Did not Jack tell you?”

And then Jack got into the room with a milkshake, my favorite milkshake, I smiled. He gave me the milkshake and he gave a little wink too, then he turned to Finn who was staring at him with a suspicious expression.

“I guess I’m not welcome here…”- He muttered under his breath.

“Do you have something to tell me?” – Finn asked to Jack.

“I guess I took too much time off, is anything you want to know?”

“This milkshake is delicious.” – I told Jack who just gave me a look judgmental and then he turned to Finn again; I was just trying to stop the fight.

“You told me she was cooking when she introduced the knife, HERSELF.” – Finn said to Jack.

“And you’re the only one who thinks a person can introduce a knife while is cooking.” – He said and we both laughing.

“This is not a joke, and coming from Danielle…”

“Ouch!” – I said and we all started laughing.

With all the drama and the stories we forgot how much we loved each other, I made an space and the twins joined me at the bed, we put the TV and we started to watch Gossip Girl, they fought with me because the thought it was a ‘girly show’ but actually they were enchanted with it, I finished my milkshake and then I fell asleep, they also did, it was my happy hour, the most happier on my life.

“Maybe there’s something you’re afraid of say, or someone you’re afraid to love, or somewhere you’re afraid to go. It’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt because it matters.” – John Green.

(Finn)

I got into the shower, I was tired and the water was my best friend.

Lately Danielle seemed to be happier and more comfortable with Jack, the way she laughed with him at the kitchen when he was trying to keep her busy was annoying but beautiful at the same time, I love my brother and I love Danielle too, but sometimes I’m afraid of losing her, of losing him because I grew up with him, he was my best friend. The water was warm and I was about to fell asleep so I decided to finish my beautiful bath time.

I went to my room and I put my pajamas on, and in my bag I found one of the diaries of Dannell, I was afraid of read it but something deep in my heart was telling me to do it. I opened a random page.

18th July of 1882

Dear diary,

Today is the day, I’m going to have another date with Frank Harrison, he’s such a gentleman, he invited me to drink tea at his porch and then a walk for his garden, I’m very surprised because I thought he was interested in Emily, not in me. There’s only one thing I miss; John. Frank is some kind of prince who always does nice things to me, he gives me flowers the other day and we danced at Mr. Darcy’s party together, he’s what every girl wants but John, well he is different, everything is more exciting with him, we are always having adventure, is passionate and even dangerous but we fight a lot, we never agree and we always find a ‘but’ to everything.

Since I knew about the curse I’ve been having some nightmares, I’m scared. For some reason I know I’m not going to survive this, I know this is going to be the end of everything but I think it worth, I’m not afraid anymore, I want to live as much as I can, even if I have to pay a price for it, but I’m ready for anything.

I have to leave you again, my head is starting to hurt and I don’t want to make him wait, wish me luck.

Love always, Dannell.

I closed it and I went to the kitchen to meet Jack and Danielle.

“Danielle, you’ve been having nightmares lately? Where we kill you?” – I asked her and then her expression changed, she turned to Jack who was staring at her with the same curiosity as I.

“Maybe” – She answered. – “How did you find out Finn?”

“Why you didn’t tell us?” – Jack asked her angry.

“I thought it was stupid.” – She just said.

“Stupid? We kill you on it, it’s not stupid.”

“Look, I’ve been having nightmares for a while and you always kill me, but guys I don’t want to waste my time anymore, I want to enjoy every single moment I left with you, I know I’m not going to survive this, I’m pretty sure of that but I don’t have afraid anymore.” – She said the same words Dannell said. – “We can through this together, I love you guys, and that’s enough to me.” – She said.

“There’s a gaping hole inside of me that caves a little more each day, it crumbles and deteriorates. It takes my breath away. There’s a hollow space inside of me, where nothing can be content, it has gotten past un-bearable, my mind’s fat to bent”

“I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because we fear something so great won’t happen twice.”

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