Double Trouble

Chapter 60

It's a mystery to both of us that our family hasn't notice anything yet. I mean, Li hacked all the databases like our medical files or police reports but blocking them out of social media or the film industry is nearly impossible.

We play neutral and hope that they won't put two and two together. But actually, I don't freaking care whether they know or not. It's not like we're embarrassed for what we reached in our lives yet, just too lazy for explanations.

Nevertheless, my face doesn't hold even one emotion, blankness is the only visible thing. So I shrug - not knowing what game I should play at the moment. Maybe for one time none? Just being myself?

Nah, too complicated. But if he - scratch that - if they still think that they could command us around, they are even stupider than I thought.

Alonzo

His brown messy curls are slightly falling into his eyes. His blue and brown eyes formally burning into Alessandro's one. And his jar line clenched and unclenched tensely.

It's very obviously that something is bothering him. Emotionally this time. Normally we're hopeless in searching for any emotions by them. But at this moment I'm able to see maybe the real thoughts they hold towards us.

Exhaustion.

Fear.

And I would lie if I say that this doesn't hurt. They should respect us - following a few more rules than in the past and talk about all the secrets, they hold. But they shouldn't fear us. We're their family and not some strangers. However maybe that's the problem: they see us as strangers and the worst we can't even be mad since we are nothing else to them theoretically.

Indeed our long family motto is La famiglia prima di tutto (family over everything). Being relative trough blood means a lot in our family as you can see at how big ours is. Or how much our nonno cares about knowing our native language Italian and all the old traditions or attempting every important event together. I can't even count down on my fingers how many discussions, we already had about modernness - particularly now at the returning of the twins.

Girls, having to wear dresses. Girls, having to keep 'their hands clean'. Girls, having to subordinate men in the mafia.

Bullshit. Such a bullshit, but getting this out of a very traditional man is nearly impossible.

As much as I can assess Lia already, I would say: she won't wear a dress, she also won't stay away from 'dirty work' and she won't subordinate herself to men ever.

I guess you can say that it'll be excited to see how they both will get along.

Anyway. Back to reality.

You can see how Lio is fighting to hold the eye contact with Sandro. And if I didn't know better, I could have swear I saw his eyes watering before he blinked rapidly to hide them.

My poor little cousin.

I don't like their emotionless. I want them to be able to show emotions, to speak about emotions and not to be ashamed by having emotions.

Back at our beach day, was the first time Riccardo, Angolo and I get to see their true feelings or more Lio's true feelings since Lia was asleep. It's still a mystery for me, why he just started to speak and reveal so many private things but I don't want to complain. I loved seeing this real smile on his face as he talked about his and Lia's relationship. He looks so beautiful smiling. I want to see it all the time on him.