Mess it up

Chapter 1

"To the young girl who is searching for a place to call home."

Once upon a time, the planets and the fates
And all the stars aligned
You and I ended up in the same room
At the same time" Taylor swift ( Mastermind)

I should have never crossed paths with him on my first day of 9th grade .
My friend Hannah was my number one supporter
But now she is telling me to get my shit together, she is right , it's not like we actually dated , I didn't love him , I didn't even want to be with him.....I just thought he was compatible , He was a good option to have,
he was smart , handsome, selfless , nice to strangers, and very friendly to people he didn't even like
How can I let go of someone like that , I needed him to be my boyfriend...
I had the perfect plan to get him
I befriended one of his friends and made him slip up and tell me some info about his friend
Roy ,the sweet , introvert , new student, and smart boy

The one I needed to be my boyfriend
I acted like I liked the same things, and like i didn't even know, he existed because boys like girls they can't approach
If you become approachable, they will lose interest very quickly
After I followed my plan and told my friend by the end of the 1st of school, I would be his girlfriend... the 2nd term started
My friends, Hannah and Eve, told me that sometimes not everything goes as planned
But I'm Lily Mason, everything goes as I planned or I thought that
In the 2nd term
Somehow , Roy was in love

Was he always in love with me, or did I actually succeed? My plan was very important, I wanted it to be a success , it worked on many people before him....he can't be an exception .
We were convinced that my plan could get anyone to fall in love with you
But I got overwhelmed, I knew I needed to show a little bit of emotions towards him if I wanted the plan to fully succeed and continue
But I didn't have the emotions nor the passion
I tried my best to be nice to him. Maybe that would do for the lack of emotions
The end of the 2nd term came, and I didn't even have a proper conversation with him
I couldn't let the summer break come without making sure that I already had him
My friends hyped me to go talk to him after the last exam at the end of the year
And I went due to Eve pressure
I didn't go because I wanted to
I went because I'm an egotistical stupid human
That hates when someone tells me that I won't be able to do something
Maybe I can't love or trust
But I think that my strategy and smart recklessness added for what I lacked
When I went to talk to him

"Roy , Roy. hi, " I said that while approaching him and waving
" Hi ,..." He looked away, and his cheeks flushed
" How did you do in the history exam ? " I thought that was a nice conversation to have since we just finished the exam minutes ago
" Well , I did fine," He replied
" What are you planning on doing this summer?"
" Nothing much, you know, just chilling watching TV,"
" Same , really,"
" Where are your friends? "
" What ? My friends, oh, you mean Eve and Hannah? "
" Yes , I wanted to talk with Eve,"
" ....."
" Why?"
" No , nothing ,just normal talk."
" Do you like her ? " I couldn't stop myself from asking that day
How can he like her ?!
Then that means all my plans and actions were wrong !
The silence that was in the room
I hated myself so much for doing that
I was always smart
How could he make me look so naive
My phone ringtone was the only thing that broke the silence between both of us
" Lily , did you talk to him ? " it was Hannah
" Really ! Okay, mom, I'm coming right away. "
" Roy , something actually came up ! You will find Eve in the music room. "
I left that day and went and told everything to Hannah and Eve
They told me that maybe Roy was the one who would take revenge for all the boys who I broke their hearts till now
They never supported my actions
Six months later, I didn't even cross path with him in the street once

Now I'm walking to my school
For the first day of my 10th grade
I'm still 16, but I'm turning 17 in two weeks
June girli
People around me thought it was funny that my birthday was June 6 , 2006
666
The devil
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