Mess it up

Chapter 11

"Are you feeling the rush?
If so, then I think I know what's going on
And are we falling in love?
Say yes or no, yes or no, yes or no
Are you thinking 'bout us?"
Yes or No ( Jung Kook )

“ Nick , I'm starting to doze off” 
“ ……….”
“ Nick”
“............”
“ Nickkkkkkk”
“ What, I'm here”
“ Get me out of this car now!”
You might be asking what's happening here
Well I will tell you from the beginning 
It all started with a girl who had just had her first romantic failure, and she-Oh, that's too far
let me check where we left off
…………….. Okay

“ Lily, it's cold here, let's go inside the car”
“ No , I'm not going in your car”
“ Stop being stubborn and get in” 
Nick walked to the car door and got in 
“ Aren't you going in!?”
He shouted at me with a worried voice
“ Why do you-” 
I felt warm air coming from Nick's open door
It was a comforting feeling 
“ You like it?” He smirked 
“ Nope , not giving in” 
“ Look what else I have” He said that as he lowered the seat of the car , it was almost a bed
“.......... No” I won't get in
You wonder why 
Because sitting with a boy in a car alone in an empty garage in the night 
Might be not so fine 
But if that boy was NICK LARSEN 
It is highly not fine
“ Don't answer now , you haven't seen the full options” Nick said in a smile as he reached his hand to grab a blanket from the back seat 
It's as if my exposed arms and legs had eyes
I felt a shiver 
As my body would sell itself for this blanket 
“ Come Lily, don't be shy , I won't eat you alive” 
I slowly walked to the other door 
Nick opened it from the inside before I could even reach the knob
I sat slowly in shame on the seat that Nick lowered and took the blanket from him 
“ Lily you-” 
“ Close your mouth, Nick Larsen”
“ Okay, okay , as long as you will stay in the car” 
We sat in the car for about 15 minutes before I spoke 
“ Nick”
“ Yes, My lady” 
“ Let's get out, Landon is probably looking for us” 
“ Let him look”
“ My family, Nick!”
“ Oh Right”
“ Come, let's get out”
I tried to open the door
It wasn't opening .
What?????
“ Nick, the door isn't opening”
“ Mine isn't either”
What does that meannnnn?
We are locked???
“ Easy open it by the key” I told him
“ Well, my jacket is inside . Didn't the waiters take your coat too”
“ You left the keys in the coat??? Then how did you open the car ?” 
“ It was already open” 
“ Then how did it close on its ownnnn??”
I screamed at Him
“ The lock system sometimes lags” 
“ Your car is broken”
“ No. It lags Lily”
“ Nick, you bastard !! Do you think I'm dumb ???” 
I jumped on Nick in the other seat. I sat on him and started feeling his pockets 
“ Where did you hide the key you psycho !” 
I started going down his pants pockets, but suddenly, I felt Nick pull me closer to him 
That my chest was touching his 
And our faces were almost touching 
Nick's eyes were dark blue that they almost looked black, but when the moonlight hit them
They appeared in their true colors
Nick's eyes started to soften as we looked at each other, and he let out a warm breath that warmed my cold nose 
“ Nick i-” Before I could even finish my words, Nick grabbed my head and pushed it into his chest 
“ What?? Let me go, Nick!” 
“ Close your mouth for once, and let's stay like that” He said in a strong voice that shocked me a little, I didn't know he could sound like a commander in the army 
 “ Okay then” I said , and that opened my mouth to bite his shoulder 
“ Ouch” 
“ That's what you get”
“ Oh my Lily , I never thought I would be bitten today by you”
“ See, it's always adventuring with me” I smirked as I said that. But Nick cupped my cheeks with his hands and smiled at me, a sweet smile that could melt the frozen poles
“ I didn't know I'm in love with a little tiger”
No
No
No
What love is he even talking about?
“ In love you say , that's not love” I replied to his words, pulling my face away from his hands
But he grabbed my face with one hand, mushing my cheeks
“ Do you even know Lily Mason, what's love?”
We stared into each other eyes, 
I didn't have an answer to his words
What is love?
But I do have an answer
“ Love makes you lose your dreams in the process , it makes you lose your interests , both partners start to imprint on each other that you don't remain yourself. Happiness will depend on seeing the other person happy and sadness will come if the other person suffers, your whole worlds start to change just for that person .” I stopped talking for a second, 
I started to get off Nick slowly.  
“ And I don't want to be like that because even when I will do anything for that person, that person won't even be able to keep his promise of going out on Friday” 
Maybe this is the first time I say what's on my mind about the idea of love 
But I don't regret it. Maybe Nick finally leaves me alone
Will I be happy if he left me alone 
Before I could jump back to my seat 
I felt a hand on my waist that pulled me back 
I was again sitting on Nick
We were facing each other 
“ Well definitely “That person” is a trash”
Nick's hands crawled up both to my waist 
“And I'm not him , so try Me Lily” 
He pulled me closer to him 
“ I will never forget to go shopping with you on Friday” He whispered in my ears, which made me chuckle 
“On Saturday ?” I whispered that in his ear
“ We sit on our coach and watch The Jurassic series”
“ I love this series” I whispered 
He pulled me closer , and we were almost hugging 
“ Me too. I love this” 
“ And on Sunday?” 
“ I will not forget our doctor appointment” 
“ we already have an appointment!” I laughed 
“ Yeah, you know we are full of diseases”
“ Yeah, you are right” 
“ And on Monday?” 
“ We will go for a walk in the park at 6:43” 
“ To see the sunset!” I smiled 
“ Yeah, to see the sunset, my lady” He pinched my cheeks 
“ And What On Tuesday?”
“ Uhmm …. We will get takeaway dinner and eat it as we watch….”
“ Crime movies !” I shouted
“ Crime movies !” He shouted back
“ Wednesday ?” I asked
“ We go to the gym in the morning after we finish. we eat wimpy burgers and fries” 
I started laughing that I was about to fall, but His hands kept me on his body. The whole time
“ Thursday ?” I said that 
“ We sleep in”
“ Just sleep?” I asked 
“ Will You never know what else will happen”
He said that as he moved a strand of her from my face
“ In bed?” I asked teasingly 
“ What bed Lily I meant the rest Of the day”
Oh, he got me
“ What does my lady have on her mind ?” he said that as he held my chin closer to him,
I escaped from his hand and sank my face in his steady hard chest 
“ Nothing”
He started to chuckle 
He really is an expert in these things 
His hand started to pat my back slowly and softly 
Before I could even realize I was dozing off 
Or more likely, I woke up because I felt like I was drooling on Nick's white button-up shirt
“ Nick , I'm starting to doze off” 
“ ……….”
“ Nick”
“............”
“ Nickkkkkkk”
“ What, I'm here”
“ Get me out of this car now!”
“ I can't, we are locked. Did you forget?”
Oh, right, we were locked
I can't believe I really slept 
I remember that it was 7:35. When I was sitting on Nicks lap 
Why is my watch saying it’s 9:00!
Here I am ! Waking up on Nick’s chest 
His hand is wrapped around my waist, keeping me in place 
And the other hand was rubbing his eyes
He looked at me with a sleepy eye before saying“ Hi sweetheart”
I wasn’t able to take my eyes away from his shining dark blue eyes that had little stars in them 
And his smile , his wife, will be very lucky to see that every day

I feel like…. I feel like

I’m envious
“ Lily ?”
“ Nothing” I tried to get up 
Even though I tried to refuse everything but one thing that I could not refuse is that Nick’s body was strong. I do not understand how he was able to sleep when I was sleeping on the top of him
“ That will be easier” 
Before I could realize what he meant 
the seat was raised up so fast that it made our faces touch 
The look in Nick's eyes was scary
no 
not scary 
He looked like he was craving something that he would do anything to have it 
Nick moved slowly to have a taste of what he had been craving, but I moved my head away from him 
“ Missed it” He said as he played with my hair
I couldn't face him
what would have happened if I hadn't moved my head?
What would happen if I looked back at him
Nick was like a gamble game
With a move, you could win a chance that could change your life, but you will never know if the change means
Winning the lottery 
Or going bankruptcy